happy birthday to me.
it is officially my birthday, yesterday was happy. i think the day before is always happier, for me at least. i dunno, maybe its just that birthdays have always been a disappointment for me. all your life people have this happy idea about birthdays. its happy, its your day. but it never is for me...never enough at least.
at the end of the day, just like what i remember from the last 19 birthdays that i've had, i end up feeling quezy, like i'm having an out of body experience. like i'm going down an elevator or in a plane that just took off. only the feeling lasts from the evening before til the end of july 10.
before the day i try to think of a special way to celebrate it, to make it like what people say it ought to be. but eventually, you figure it wont be. because happiness always (for me) entails having things my way. and they never ever are.
hohum.
i guess thats why i never expect anything for birthdays. i think its best when u never do. i dont really need anything prolly. and i've figured my "luho" wont be satisfied by other people. i'm gonna have to be the one to get it for myself.
lol, but i do have a new cellphone hehehehe.
honestly, today (um, yesterday) was prolly one of the nicest birthdays i've ever had. simply because i was with old friends that came there just for me. and ate at really simple and pleasant little tokyo (one of the restos there, i dont know their names) and had amazing tuna sashimi(i like fish) and oh, did i mention i got a new cellphone??? my boyfriend has legitimized my camwhoring.
tomorrow (i mean, later) will hopefully be great. since we will do nothing but drink. although i risk going from mere quezy to vomitting.
i think i'll go eat some more lychees before going off to bed.
happy birthday to me.
at the end of the day, just like what i remember from the last 19 birthdays that i've had, i end up feeling quezy, like i'm having an out of body experience. like i'm going down an elevator or in a plane that just took off. only the feeling lasts from the evening before til the end of july 10.
before the day i try to think of a special way to celebrate it, to make it like what people say it ought to be. but eventually, you figure it wont be. because happiness always (for me) entails having things my way. and they never ever are.
hohum.
i guess thats why i never expect anything for birthdays. i think its best when u never do. i dont really need anything prolly. and i've figured my "luho" wont be satisfied by other people. i'm gonna have to be the one to get it for myself.
lol, but i do have a new cellphone hehehehe.
honestly, today (um, yesterday) was prolly one of the nicest birthdays i've ever had. simply because i was with old friends that came there just for me. and ate at really simple and pleasant little tokyo (one of the restos there, i dont know their names) and had amazing tuna sashimi(i like fish) and oh, did i mention i got a new cellphone??? my boyfriend has legitimized my camwhoring.
tomorrow (i mean, later) will hopefully be great. since we will do nothing but drink. although i risk going from mere quezy to vomitting.
i think i'll go eat some more lychees before going off to bed.
happy birthday to me.