i am breaking down...
help.. the boy who i was starting to have feelings for well.. is sitting by himself in a psych ward.. i want to cry..
we go and see him and he will be good and then he will talk again about him being the second coming of jesus.. and that in his mothers body is the devil and that he is here to save us (his apostles and me Mary Magdeline). i feel for his mother.. and everyone who is close to him.. we just all cry at times.. i cry everytime i go home..
he keeps asking for me i guess.. i wish i could just stay with him.. cause it breaks me.. he wants to go to school.. but i think he is just not ready till he sees a doctor tomorrow... then we will know.. my mother and matt's dad have an idea in their medical opinions.. i hope its not true..
when i come home at night i swear i see him sleeping in my bed.. and at times it freaks me out.. but i would have him there then in there..
so what did i do to forget it.. last night i got drunk then did shrooms.. and only 2 steams and i was tripping for awhile.. BEST WALK HOME IN MY LIFE!! (i have plently more! :) ) the people at the white house are great.. Jake is great.. and Greg my new BFF! he helped me get safely through my trip.. (i mean i did have some eric depressing thoughts on my mind) but i had to stay happy.. and it made it so nice! :) i just needed to laugh about the situation last night and john carvaro helped me alot too.. it just drives me crazy at times..
but i must go..
we go and see him and he will be good and then he will talk again about him being the second coming of jesus.. and that in his mothers body is the devil and that he is here to save us (his apostles and me Mary Magdeline). i feel for his mother.. and everyone who is close to him.. we just all cry at times.. i cry everytime i go home..
he keeps asking for me i guess.. i wish i could just stay with him.. cause it breaks me.. he wants to go to school.. but i think he is just not ready till he sees a doctor tomorrow... then we will know.. my mother and matt's dad have an idea in their medical opinions.. i hope its not true..
when i come home at night i swear i see him sleeping in my bed.. and at times it freaks me out.. but i would have him there then in there..
so what did i do to forget it.. last night i got drunk then did shrooms.. and only 2 steams and i was tripping for awhile.. BEST WALK HOME IN MY LIFE!! (i have plently more! :) ) the people at the white house are great.. Jake is great.. and Greg my new BFF! he helped me get safely through my trip.. (i mean i did have some eric depressing thoughts on my mind) but i had to stay happy.. and it made it so nice! :) i just needed to laugh about the situation last night and john carvaro helped me alot too.. it just drives me crazy at times..
but i must go..