maybe i am the big Cosmic Joke
I have this professor. He's terrifying. I've never felt so incredibly stupid in my whole life whenever I'm in his presence. It's been this way for a while. I finally figured out that it's not because he actually is a brilliant man, but because he makes me feel so little whenever I talk to him. It's not what he says to me, but the way it comes out that makes me feel like a fucking moron. But what is comes down to, really, is the fact that every time I meet with him, I leave feeling like he thinks I should not have been allowed to graduate high school, and that makes me feel a little bit like shit. Ugh. I know that the moment this semester ends and I am free of his class, I will recommence feeling like I am capable of passing a college course, but until then, I will feel uncomfortably unintelligent.