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"If only for today, I am unafraid"
Guys, I feel so much better... really- today has been that transitional day when I've finally decided to leave all of the nonsense behind and move on to better things... and trust me, it has felt so good. Katie's backkkkk... get ready :o)
So the big "move-out" has begun... I spent some time packing today and REALLY, the amount of useless trash in my room is completely ridiculous. I mean honestly, I packed 5 bags and you can't even tell a difference when you walk in here. But you'll have that when you try to cram all of MY stuff into a room that's a fourth of the size of what I'm used to... Mom and dad better get READY for this. Actually, come to think of it, they need to rent a UHaul... I think that'd work out a little better for us!
... It just hasn't all hit me yet and I'm waiting for the moment that it does so that I can stop feeling like I'm in denial about the entire situation. *sigh*
But, yes... I went to the dance program last nite and LET ME TELL YOU-- I can't wait to really dance again. I backed off this semester because I knew my work load was going to be unreal but gah, I really need it in my life again. I'm hoping that I can find a way to dance somehow over the summer-- even if it means getting a key to the studio and going crazy in there by myself... it needs to happen.
I did a lot of thinking today and I think I figured a LOT out! It's pretty exciting to feel laid back and content with whatever happens regardless of what I really WANT to happen. I know whose hands my fate is in so who am I to spend my time wanting something when it could possibly be different than has already been planned? I've just decided to take a deep breath, let life run its course, and enjoy the ride.
Honestly, I can't stress how much I've loved today. I've been so productive that I can hardly stand it and I'm finally so at PEACE. I did my "normal day activities" and then cleaned, ran, packed, did homework, shopped for Aubrey, and had a birthday celebration ((which BY THE WAY GUYS- it's Aub's birthday today... AubreyDanelle is her sn- SEND HER LOVE NOW!))
And I've got the best friends in the world... I know I say it all the time but seriously- I'm so lucky and I hope you all never forget that you are loved. The people here- it's so hard to tell you how I feel but trust me, when it comes time to leave you better be ready for some sap. And you all at home-- I know sometimes I don't stay in touch the way I should but you're in my thoughts all the time and I can't wait to see you guys soon :o)
wellll... haha I thought this was going to be an insightful entry and it's really just not... and I'm tired and for ONCE, you can actually see my bed and I don't have to throw clothes onto the floor in order to get in soooo yah... I'm just gunna have to head outta here but have a great day and I love y'all :o)
Guys, I feel so much better... really- today has been that transitional day when I've finally decided to leave all of the nonsense behind and move on to better things... and trust me, it has felt so good. Katie's backkkkk... get ready :o)
So the big "move-out" has begun... I spent some time packing today and REALLY, the amount of useless trash in my room is completely ridiculous. I mean honestly, I packed 5 bags and you can't even tell a difference when you walk in here. But you'll have that when you try to cram all of MY stuff into a room that's a fourth of the size of what I'm used to... Mom and dad better get READY for this. Actually, come to think of it, they need to rent a UHaul... I think that'd work out a little better for us!
... It just hasn't all hit me yet and I'm waiting for the moment that it does so that I can stop feeling like I'm in denial about the entire situation. *sigh*
But, yes... I went to the dance program last nite and LET ME TELL YOU-- I can't wait to really dance again. I backed off this semester because I knew my work load was going to be unreal but gah, I really need it in my life again. I'm hoping that I can find a way to dance somehow over the summer-- even if it means getting a key to the studio and going crazy in there by myself... it needs to happen.
I did a lot of thinking today and I think I figured a LOT out! It's pretty exciting to feel laid back and content with whatever happens regardless of what I really WANT to happen. I know whose hands my fate is in so who am I to spend my time wanting something when it could possibly be different than has already been planned? I've just decided to take a deep breath, let life run its course, and enjoy the ride.
Honestly, I can't stress how much I've loved today. I've been so productive that I can hardly stand it and I'm finally so at PEACE. I did my "normal day activities" and then cleaned, ran, packed, did homework, shopped for Aubrey, and had a birthday celebration ((which BY THE WAY GUYS- it's Aub's birthday today... AubreyDanelle is her sn- SEND HER LOVE NOW!))
And I've got the best friends in the world... I know I say it all the time but seriously- I'm so lucky and I hope you all never forget that you are loved. The people here- it's so hard to tell you how I feel but trust me, when it comes time to leave you better be ready for some sap. And you all at home-- I know sometimes I don't stay in touch the way I should but you're in my thoughts all the time and I can't wait to see you guys soon :o)
wellll... haha I thought this was going to be an insightful entry and it's really just not... and I'm tired and for ONCE, you can actually see my bed and I don't have to throw clothes onto the floor in order to get in soooo yah... I'm just gunna have to head outta here but have a great day and I love y'all :o)