"There's still time for you, time to buy and time to choose"
I have exactly one week until graduation, but it still feels so surreal that my high school days are completely over. In 2002, the World Cup in Korea/Japan took place during the summer before freshman year, and now, the 2006 World Cup is going on as I leave high school. In a way, it seems so fitting that these two amazing events envelop my four years, marking their beginning and end.
For the longest time, I didn't imagine that leaving high school would be this hard. Especially last year, when I first moved to NY, I was so looking forward to college where everyone starts over, not just myself. I underestimated how happy I could be, particularly this past year. Senior year has been a complete blur.
What I'm sad about the most is all the things I wanted to do during high school and knowing that I would never get the years back in which to do them. Most of it is silly, little things like having a boyfriend who would slip notes into my locker or getting detention and having a blast a la The Breakfast Club.
Regrets, I have a couple, but I don't want to dwell on them anymore because there's nothing I can do now. However, from them I have learned two most important things - that I am a terrible judge of character and that it's ok for me to change my mind. I have discovered that some people who I orginally disliked turned out to be a few of the nicest people I've ever known and that I, so concerned with making the perfect decision, can just explore the possibilities and see where they lead me.
I have to admit, despite being sad about school ending, I am still really excited about finally going to college and being on my own. This summer should be bittersweet and absolutely incredible. I won't stand for any less.
So now that I think about it, the next World Cup should start as I graduate from college. The four-year intervals are quite convenient. Maybe I'll have less regrets then than I do now. Probably not. Maybe I'll be there in South Africa for 2010. Actually, I think I will wait for Brazil(?) 2014 (wow I'll be 26)... if I can stay away for that long. The eight years in the meantime seem so far away, but as I know so well, they will probably pass much too quickly.
For the longest time, I didn't imagine that leaving high school would be this hard. Especially last year, when I first moved to NY, I was so looking forward to college where everyone starts over, not just myself. I underestimated how happy I could be, particularly this past year. Senior year has been a complete blur.
What I'm sad about the most is all the things I wanted to do during high school and knowing that I would never get the years back in which to do them. Most of it is silly, little things like having a boyfriend who would slip notes into my locker or getting detention and having a blast a la The Breakfast Club.
Regrets, I have a couple, but I don't want to dwell on them anymore because there's nothing I can do now. However, from them I have learned two most important things - that I am a terrible judge of character and that it's ok for me to change my mind. I have discovered that some people who I orginally disliked turned out to be a few of the nicest people I've ever known and that I, so concerned with making the perfect decision, can just explore the possibilities and see where they lead me.
I have to admit, despite being sad about school ending, I am still really excited about finally going to college and being on my own. This summer should be bittersweet and absolutely incredible. I won't stand for any less.
So now that I think about it, the next World Cup should start as I graduate from college. The four-year intervals are quite convenient. Maybe I'll have less regrets then than I do now. Probably not. Maybe I'll be there in South Africa for 2010. Actually, I think I will wait for Brazil(?) 2014 (wow I'll be 26)... if I can stay away for that long. The eight years in the meantime seem so far away, but as I know so well, they will probably pass much too quickly.