it smells like cat piss or worse.
right now, i'm blogging when i should be reading the chapter for tomorrow's biology test. i am in the middle of section 2 out of 3, but it's so boring! i don't fucking care what Darwin did and how things evolve. do i want to be a biology major? no! music has nothing to do with chrynoids and shit. ahhhh fuck school. i signed up for environmental earth science for my senior year; i think that'll be a little better than dissecting pregnant cats and having to skin them. uh ew. i own a cat, so no thanks. i'm kind of regretting signing up for easy classes, but hell, it's my senior year. i've had straight "D"s in trig so far, so i signed up for advanced integrated math. alan, johnny peffer, and autumn are taking it with me, so at least i don't feel like a huge retard. people keep telling me that i'm being dumb and taking the easy way out and that i should take pre-calculus next year. i'm going to fail that! have fun in calculus next year, freaks.
nothing important's happened lately except for that prom is friday. i hope i don't fall walking down the stairs at the city building.
oh, and i made the decision that this next (and final! woo!) 6 weeks, i am going to kick all of my teachers' asses. i am going to study, do all of my homework, and get nothing less than a "C" on my tests. the only classes i really need to work my ass off in are biology and trig. i blow at math and science. they were my two lowest scores on the ACT. i got 28s in english and reading, but i got a 14 in math and a 17 in science; i got a 21 overall. sooooo, that means no promise scholarship for me if i can't bring my math and science scores up to at least 20s this december when i take the test again. oh well. i'm going for a music scholarship, but with how mr. channell's talking, it feels like he's not expecting me to get one. he talks all this good shit about daniel and how he practices so much because he needs a scholarship for college. it's like, "well, i've been working my ass off since 6th grade, and you don't expect me to get anything from it?" he's making me do all-state band next year, and he is wanting to start working on audition pieces for college. i really don't believe i can get a scholarship. i really want a full ride, but i'm doubtful that that's going to happen since i "need 4 audition pieces." what the hell.
i think i'm getting back into depression mode. all i want to do is sit around, and i'm really not feeling too hot lately. i just don't care anymore, and i get angered really easily. my doctor said that i might have "seasonal depression" and that when the sun comes out, i'll feel better. the thing is, i felt my shittiest during the summer and right before fall, but i went to him in november (i think.). even though it's been raining lately, i just feel like shit because i know it's spring. i was so hyped up that it was march, but after the first few days, i felt the symptoms of what i had before. hopefully my social anxiety doesn't come back. :/
nothing important's happened lately except for that prom is friday. i hope i don't fall walking down the stairs at the city building.
oh, and i made the decision that this next (and final! woo!) 6 weeks, i am going to kick all of my teachers' asses. i am going to study, do all of my homework, and get nothing less than a "C" on my tests. the only classes i really need to work my ass off in are biology and trig. i blow at math and science. they were my two lowest scores on the ACT. i got 28s in english and reading, but i got a 14 in math and a 17 in science; i got a 21 overall. sooooo, that means no promise scholarship for me if i can't bring my math and science scores up to at least 20s this december when i take the test again. oh well. i'm going for a music scholarship, but with how mr. channell's talking, it feels like he's not expecting me to get one. he talks all this good shit about daniel and how he practices so much because he needs a scholarship for college. it's like, "well, i've been working my ass off since 6th grade, and you don't expect me to get anything from it?" he's making me do all-state band next year, and he is wanting to start working on audition pieces for college. i really don't believe i can get a scholarship. i really want a full ride, but i'm doubtful that that's going to happen since i "need 4 audition pieces." what the hell.
i think i'm getting back into depression mode. all i want to do is sit around, and i'm really not feeling too hot lately. i just don't care anymore, and i get angered really easily. my doctor said that i might have "seasonal depression" and that when the sun comes out, i'll feel better. the thing is, i felt my shittiest during the summer and right before fall, but i went to him in november (i think.). even though it's been raining lately, i just feel like shit because i know it's spring. i was so hyped up that it was march, but after the first few days, i felt the symptoms of what i had before. hopefully my social anxiety doesn't come back. :/