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I just got the news that my grandma had a stroke and i'm fucking terrified.
She can't die...she just can't. Not her. Just. I'm not even sure how to react.
The doctors say it had passed but it's not good enough. What if it happens again? What are we gonna do? And, God, grandpa should be so scared right now. Mom said she has her eye and mouth twisted but don't know if it's permanent. God, i'm so scared. I just need to get it off my chest. I can't talk to anyone about it - my mom's at work, my dad has never been the care and share kinda guy and my sister is so sensitive, i don't want to make her cry.
I remember when my other set of grandparents died. I was in such a shock. My sister was crying her heart out. It might be egoistic but the i wanted to scream at her to just shut put then...
But i guess we're not the same people.
We're going to visit grandma tomorrow, and ,fuck, I'm scared... I just hope she is ok. It doesn't matter how she looks as long as she's alive and well...
She can't die...she just can't. Not her. Just. I'm not even sure how to react.
The doctors say it had passed but it's not good enough. What if it happens again? What are we gonna do? And, God, grandpa should be so scared right now. Mom said she has her eye and mouth twisted but don't know if it's permanent. God, i'm so scared. I just need to get it off my chest. I can't talk to anyone about it - my mom's at work, my dad has never been the care and share kinda guy and my sister is so sensitive, i don't want to make her cry.
I remember when my other set of grandparents died. I was in such a shock. My sister was crying her heart out. It might be egoistic but the i wanted to scream at her to just shut put then...
But i guess we're not the same people.
We're going to visit grandma tomorrow, and ,fuck, I'm scared... I just hope she is ok. It doesn't matter how she looks as long as she's alive and well...