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I just watched the movie How to Be Single and it is surprisingly non as stereotypical as I expected from the all-the-interconnected-white-people-and-their-romantic-tales-around-holidays type movies.
Everybody is somehow interconnected and in potentially awkward/messy relationships but each is distinct and nobody is meant to be together. If anything, these are the - as in real life - the transitional people you are with.
Some days I can't believe how fast time has past. Mei's been in Houston for a year. It's been over 2 years since I had anything resembling a relationship. Over a year since I bought my place. My BABY sister is now a TEENAGER.
And yet...
The idea of being alive for the next 10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60 years?
UGGGGHHHH. I'm exhausted just thinking about it.
I feel paralyzed by all the vastness. The options. The uncertainty of outcomes.
How do you even begin to set goals or conceptualize what is possible or reasonable?! How can you follow through on anything when nothing feels defined...
Everybody is somehow interconnected and in potentially awkward/messy relationships but each is distinct and nobody is meant to be together. If anything, these are the - as in real life - the transitional people you are with.
Some days I can't believe how fast time has past. Mei's been in Houston for a year. It's been over 2 years since I had anything resembling a relationship. Over a year since I bought my place. My BABY sister is now a TEENAGER.
And yet...
The idea of being alive for the next 10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60 years?
UGGGGHHHH. I'm exhausted just thinking about it.
I feel paralyzed by all the vastness. The options. The uncertainty of outcomes.
How do you even begin to set goals or conceptualize what is possible or reasonable?! How can you follow through on anything when nothing feels defined...