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Colbie Caillet's Try. The opening verses speak so perfectly to my entire life I can barely breathe.
Put your make up on/Get your nails done/Curl your hair
Run the extra mile/Keep it slim/So they like you. Do they like you?
Get your sexy on/Don't be shy, girl/Take it off
This is what you want, to belong/So they like you. Do you like you?
And I do like me when I run the extra mile, keep it slim; I love getting my shop on and I'm not shy or afraid to get my sexy on, and I'm happy finding people with whom I jive and belong, but it is EXHAUSTING.
I like me just fine but its really hard for me to like me without validation that others like me too. And when I'm not sure I like me all that much then I hide away from testing out /whether/ anybody would like me.
It's nice to have this song to remind myself that its okay to find it all so hard.
There's something to be said for songs like Meghan Trainer's girl-power(at the direction of boys though...) and Miranda Lambert's own-your-weirdness-faults, and Nicki/Ariana/Charli selflove and sexiness for you and hey if a guy likes it cool if he doesnt fuck him....but all of them are just not me. I don't want to be curvy. I don't own cute lingerie or want to. And I definitely don't want to own my quirks and faults or "secrets" because I don't like them! I'd rather work towards changing them bc I don't like me with them - I, personally, regardless of societal pressures, would have a mental breakdown if I just "let myself go" (that kind of "freedom" is petrifying to a control freak like me) - but at the same time hearing its okay to just. be. as well is nice.
Put your make up on/Get your nails done/Curl your hair
Run the extra mile/Keep it slim/So they like you. Do they like you?
Get your sexy on/Don't be shy, girl/Take it off
This is what you want, to belong/So they like you. Do you like you?
And I do like me when I run the extra mile, keep it slim; I love getting my shop on and I'm not shy or afraid to get my sexy on, and I'm happy finding people with whom I jive and belong, but it is EXHAUSTING.
I like me just fine but its really hard for me to like me without validation that others like me too. And when I'm not sure I like me all that much then I hide away from testing out /whether/ anybody would like me.
Click to viewIt's nice to have this song to remind myself that its okay to find it all so hard.
There's something to be said for songs like Meghan Trainer's girl-power(at the direction of boys though...) and Miranda Lambert's own-your-weirdness-faults, and Nicki/Ariana/Charli selflove and sexiness for you and hey if a guy likes it cool if he doesnt fuck him....but all of them are just not me. I don't want to be curvy. I don't own cute lingerie or want to. And I definitely don't want to own my quirks and faults or "secrets" because I don't like them! I'd rather work towards changing them bc I don't like me with them - I, personally, regardless of societal pressures, would have a mental breakdown if I just "let myself go" (that kind of "freedom" is petrifying to a control freak like me) - but at the same time hearing its okay to just. be. as well is nice.