I _know_ it's been forever.....
Wow. Talk about a lot of life happening.
I broke up with Justin (my convienence boyfriend) because I met someone. Yeah, it's one of those 'has to be pronounced as if it was written in bolded letters' met someone.
Can I just say that he's gorgeous? So gorgeous it's scary? He looks exactly like Joaquin Phoenix (the emperor in Gladiator?) when he was in 8MM, except he's skinnier and he has a very short hair cut (growing back from bald). He's really sweet and honest and just....gee. And the worst part is, I like him. A lot. I could even see myself falling in love with him.
This is so much more messy than my relationship with Justin. That was so easy, so convienent. This is hellfire and damnation and passion and lust and a million other little emotions that have turned me into some sort of _girl_. I'm sighing, for Christ's sake! And waiting by the phone for him to call, sometimes. And giving him that 'adoring' look. This is totally unacceptable. This is the kind of relationship that I could get hurt in. I hate risks like this. I hate relying on other people.
I don't know. I _think_ he likes me, like I like him. I really do. I think that I made it perfectly clear that if he had just wanted to sleep with me, all he would have had to do was say "Do you want to have sex?" and I would have said "Okay!". But he didn't he's been tender and affectionate and....wonderful. Just wonderful.
I also attended my first Con this past weekend. Shevacon, in Roanoake VA. It was freaking awesome. The LARP sucked a wee bit, because everyone was playing such mondo-twink characters (A 6th Gen Assamite-Abomination with hedge-magic?? A _ghoul_ with Celerity _9_???) while I was playing a starting level character both nights. (A Lasombra who would have gotten offed if Jason hadn't ransomed me out the first night, and a pretty kick ass Hunter the second night. That ruled. The Hunters were insane).
Anyway, it was so amazing because Jason and I went _everywhere_ together. And here's the part where I'm a little confused. The first day, someone asked us if we were going out and he answered "Yeah." (yay!) That morning (8AM and we still hadn't found a place to crash!), we were in the elevator and he said "So..you're my girlfriend now. I like that." But then, later that next night, a friend of his asked if we were a "steady thing" and he said "I don't know -- we only really met a week or so ago."
What the hell is _that_? Ugh. You see what I mean? Total girl. I mean, I really want to see him, but am I coming on too strong? Does he feel the same way? Should I bring it up? Wait for him to? All of these questions are tearing around in my mind at 150 mph, while I should be thinking about class.
Again I say, this is most disconcerting. But it's also kind of amazing.
And he is _so_ pretty. He has a waist like a girl.....*purr*
I broke up with Justin (my convienence boyfriend) because I met someone. Yeah, it's one of those 'has to be pronounced as if it was written in bolded letters' met someone.
Can I just say that he's gorgeous? So gorgeous it's scary? He looks exactly like Joaquin Phoenix (the emperor in Gladiator?) when he was in 8MM, except he's skinnier and he has a very short hair cut (growing back from bald). He's really sweet and honest and just....gee. And the worst part is, I like him. A lot. I could even see myself falling in love with him.
This is so much more messy than my relationship with Justin. That was so easy, so convienent. This is hellfire and damnation and passion and lust and a million other little emotions that have turned me into some sort of _girl_. I'm sighing, for Christ's sake! And waiting by the phone for him to call, sometimes. And giving him that 'adoring' look. This is totally unacceptable. This is the kind of relationship that I could get hurt in. I hate risks like this. I hate relying on other people.
I don't know. I _think_ he likes me, like I like him. I really do. I think that I made it perfectly clear that if he had just wanted to sleep with me, all he would have had to do was say "Do you want to have sex?" and I would have said "Okay!". But he didn't he's been tender and affectionate and....wonderful. Just wonderful.
I also attended my first Con this past weekend. Shevacon, in Roanoake VA. It was freaking awesome. The LARP sucked a wee bit, because everyone was playing such mondo-twink characters (A 6th Gen Assamite-Abomination with hedge-magic?? A _ghoul_ with Celerity _9_???) while I was playing a starting level character both nights. (A Lasombra who would have gotten offed if Jason hadn't ransomed me out the first night, and a pretty kick ass Hunter the second night. That ruled. The Hunters were insane).
Anyway, it was so amazing because Jason and I went _everywhere_ together. And here's the part where I'm a little confused. The first day, someone asked us if we were going out and he answered "Yeah." (yay!) That morning (8AM and we still hadn't found a place to crash!), we were in the elevator and he said "So..you're my girlfriend now. I like that." But then, later that next night, a friend of his asked if we were a "steady thing" and he said "I don't know -- we only really met a week or so ago."
What the hell is _that_? Ugh. You see what I mean? Total girl. I mean, I really want to see him, but am I coming on too strong? Does he feel the same way? Should I bring it up? Wait for him to? All of these questions are tearing around in my mind at 150 mph, while I should be thinking about class.
Again I say, this is most disconcerting. But it's also kind of amazing.
And he is _so_ pretty. He has a waist like a girl.....*purr*