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Ok I thought things were perfect till last friday. Last friday I didn't get any calls from kevin or texts. I knew something was up b/c we talk everyday, multiple times a day. Saturday came and still nothing...sunday i finally got a call at around 3. To sum things up we are now broken up. I am just really confused and I think he is even more confused. He said he still loves me and cares about me but the long distance thing is really hard and he misses the physical aspects. He said that every time I leave it just gets harder and harder for him. To me, I feel like that means he still likes me. He told me he does still care about me but I guess that it was all to hard for him. I don't get how someone can fall out of love in a week. I don't even know if he is not in love with me. I kind of feel like we are still dating but not. That sentence makes no sense but it is how I feel. He wants to remain friends because through our 5 months we have become best friends and we talk about everything. I told him I didn't know if I could remain friends b/c I can't see him with other girls but I would try my best. He said he doesn't want to see me with other guys. He kept contradicting himself and he even said he is really confused and what he wants is something in the middle but that doesn't really exist. I told him he could come up every weekend if he wanted to but I know that is not reality. Gas is expensive and that would be so much driving. I understand his side but if he is being honest with me then I don't get why he still isn't willing to work on the long distance because we have made it this far. I guess only time will tell and I know we will hang out over christmas break. We are still exchanging gifts which is nice i guess. After talking with various people I feel like we broke up and are no longer labeled as b/f and g/f but we are still technically together. Of course that is how I am taking it and we can possibliy be totally broken up. Ahhh the confusion.
xoxo
ariana
xoxo
ariana