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cel_bel_fre

School Next Week!

Sep 14, 2008 13:07

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dzertva_x September 15 2008, 00:21:33 UTC

;~; It hurts when someone you like likes someone else... I hope you can get closure with this Mark.

cel_bel_fre September 16 2008, 07:05:18 UTC

Yes it does...

I hope so because I trulybelieve that it will stay an open raw wound on my soul and heart if I don't.

Love ruins things. Complicates maybe.

dzertva_x September 16 2008, 15:14:32 UTC

It does complicate things :/ Eugh.

the_evernight September 15 2008, 01:48:40 UTC

Who were you talking to yesterday that brought up Mark in a bad way?

The second-to-last paragraph I did not know. :( I hope that's not the case.

As weird as the bio-male thing is, please remember that it's at LEAST as weird for me, if not more.

cel_bel_fre September 16 2008, 07:11:00 UTC

Yeah, I know he's, I mean it's well that makes me sound like I am calling him and it and I mean it (the situation) is uncharted territory...

But yes, I may just lose my legs for any decent purpose. The other day we were on the 166 by the Bikini Espresso and the scary motel to Highline and I was in pain with no good reason and I didn't want to tell you but it made me so sad to realize that this is my body now to just have an awareness of pain so intense where I was aware of each fiber too tight or grown back together incorrectly.

I most likely need another MRI and some serious rehab or ??? Surgery I cannot afford recovery time wise etc... but there has to be something more to do for it.

It was someone who knew what he was....... it just hurts ok. Closed subject.

the_evernight September 17 2008, 19:52:49 UTC

It is uncharted territory and it's not easy for me to step outside of my comfort zone that way!

I'm sorry :(

Ok.