realizing that i haven't posted in awhile

[ceitidhcat]

Isn't it interesting to see how people we know have spread out across the country, even world. I can even count myself in that I'm down here living in a major city. Yet for me I still haven't reached a point where san francisco is home. It is where I live, it is where I come back to, where sean has work, where I go to school, and where I am creating a life. Only it never feels like a perfect fit. Perhaps part of that is because the city, and the bay area is an incredibly expensive place to live. What we pay in rent for one month could rent a 3br house in oregon, or more. And it's not like we're not happy, but there's always room for improvement. Our little neighborhood is one of the sweetest in the city, and I wouldn't trade it for many others, particularly not for those higher rents. However we will never be able to afford to buy down here, at least not without huge risk considering most housing in the bay area is over-inflated. I can look at the range of 350,000 in oregon and you dont' get what you want always, but 1.2 million? really, what house is worth that when it is completely outdated, small, and attached to neighbors.  But i digress, when what I really wanted to comment upon was how spread out everyone has become. While i mention the pulls to move to oregon, I have strong pulls to move to seattle, or boston, or europe. To venture farther and farther away from what I knew growing up, not because that isn't my ideal, but because if it is, then I should cement that through experiencing other areas.

Then again, I am getting ahead of myself when I have a thesis to complete, and some future job to secure.... dreams are always shifting, am I following my dream, or letting life happen while I make plans?