A lull
I have today off and seem to have really needed it as I'm currently not feeling that healthy. I woke up with my back hurting and my body feels a little wobbly. A lot of this seems to be coming from the stress I've been under and I'm still waiting to hear if I got the place I want to rent, which sucks. Being in-between and waiting is one of my least favorite feelings ever especially as the weather's starting to get colder and all my winter weather stuff is in storage.
Yesterday ended up being a better day than Monday as I was able to understand more of the context of what overwhelmed me. I think the school I'm working at doesn't have a good handle on how the tech they have is used, so I'm going to investigate it. Since its just weird that there are computers in the library and a tech lab, but the tech lab is only used sometimes and the tech guys bristled at the idea of students playing games on the expensive computers. That kind of make me blink and go, um, that doesn't make sense. Those computers seem to have specific programs on them for things like yearbook, but still, there are more computers there. If equity of everyone having access to a computer is key, get more use out of those. Also it turns out that the Minecraft, Facebook comparison was more about students using school resources, so its fine to be on Facebook on your own laptop or smartphone but not a school computer. It doesn't really make a lot of sense to me and I want to figure out how they think the computers should be used, as multitasking is what everyone does. I also asked Upper School kids to help me by supervising the Minecraft guys and I got a cheer from the Upper School meeting at the idea of getting them out of the library. That was an incredible moment of knowing I had picked up on something that needed to be dealt with and I've had four different volunteers, because this school is good on mentorship.
Another good thing that happened yesterday was I was able to sit and watch a marathon of SyFy's Face Off and my host didn't change the channel, so I could type and watch TV. It was so nice and reminded me just how much I want my own space again. Oh and at work I ended up getting fed by people. I think people have started noticing how I don't really grab lunch, because my host brought me leftover pizza and someone else gave me a bagel. I do try to bring snacks, but I haven't been able to get into a place of properly making my lunch and someone even said, you need to eat or else you'll get sick. And the college counselor told me that a lot of the kids really like me, I think what I said on Monday about I think the kids see what I'm doing more than the administrators and teachers is true. I'm pretty okay with that, there are teachers who talk to me about projects as other teachers see what I've done for them, then they'll want me to help. In terms of creating a library culture, having the kids truly understanding is going to be more powerful since they'll talk about what I'm doing and make it real.
At the moment, I'm sitting at one of my favorite cafes drinking mint tea after having chicken noodle soup and just enjoying having a day when I don't have to be on. I'll head back later in the afternoon and start my laundry before probably trying to sleep slightly early.
GEMINI (May 21-June 20): There's a good chance that your rhythm in the
coming days will resemble a gentle, continuous orgasm. It won't be
stupendously ecstatic, mind you. I'm not predicting massive eruptions of
honeyed bliss that keep blowing your mind. Rather, the experience will be
more like a persistent flow of warm contentment. You'll be constantly
tuning in to a secret sweetness that thrills you subliminally. Again and
again you will slip into a delicious feeling that everything is unfolding
exactly as it should be. Warning! There are two factors that could possibly
undermine this blessing: 1. if you scare it away with blasts of cynicism; 2.
if you get greedy and try to force it to become bigger and stronger. So
please don't do those things!
Uncle Rob, this does feel kind of true to me, because I'm starting to figure out what works for me at this job. One of the things I love about being a librarian is that my day is full of variety and when it works, I do get a real thrill from it. Students applauded me yesterday and I still get a kind of silly smile on my face when I think of it.
I realized that I almost forgot
yuletide, which I really shouldn't do. My three nominations were for The Seven Realms books by Cinda Williams Chima, Tommy and Tuppence by Agatha Christie and the Magids series by Diana Wynne Jones. All of them were approved, which was a nice feeling.
This entry is also posted at http://ceitfianna.dreamwidth.org/353627.html. Please comment wherever you'd like.
Yesterday ended up being a better day than Monday as I was able to understand more of the context of what overwhelmed me. I think the school I'm working at doesn't have a good handle on how the tech they have is used, so I'm going to investigate it. Since its just weird that there are computers in the library and a tech lab, but the tech lab is only used sometimes and the tech guys bristled at the idea of students playing games on the expensive computers. That kind of make me blink and go, um, that doesn't make sense. Those computers seem to have specific programs on them for things like yearbook, but still, there are more computers there. If equity of everyone having access to a computer is key, get more use out of those. Also it turns out that the Minecraft, Facebook comparison was more about students using school resources, so its fine to be on Facebook on your own laptop or smartphone but not a school computer. It doesn't really make a lot of sense to me and I want to figure out how they think the computers should be used, as multitasking is what everyone does. I also asked Upper School kids to help me by supervising the Minecraft guys and I got a cheer from the Upper School meeting at the idea of getting them out of the library. That was an incredible moment of knowing I had picked up on something that needed to be dealt with and I've had four different volunteers, because this school is good on mentorship.
Another good thing that happened yesterday was I was able to sit and watch a marathon of SyFy's Face Off and my host didn't change the channel, so I could type and watch TV. It was so nice and reminded me just how much I want my own space again. Oh and at work I ended up getting fed by people. I think people have started noticing how I don't really grab lunch, because my host brought me leftover pizza and someone else gave me a bagel. I do try to bring snacks, but I haven't been able to get into a place of properly making my lunch and someone even said, you need to eat or else you'll get sick. And the college counselor told me that a lot of the kids really like me, I think what I said on Monday about I think the kids see what I'm doing more than the administrators and teachers is true. I'm pretty okay with that, there are teachers who talk to me about projects as other teachers see what I've done for them, then they'll want me to help. In terms of creating a library culture, having the kids truly understanding is going to be more powerful since they'll talk about what I'm doing and make it real.
At the moment, I'm sitting at one of my favorite cafes drinking mint tea after having chicken noodle soup and just enjoying having a day when I don't have to be on. I'll head back later in the afternoon and start my laundry before probably trying to sleep slightly early.
GEMINI (May 21-June 20): There's a good chance that your rhythm in the
coming days will resemble a gentle, continuous orgasm. It won't be
stupendously ecstatic, mind you. I'm not predicting massive eruptions of
honeyed bliss that keep blowing your mind. Rather, the experience will be
more like a persistent flow of warm contentment. You'll be constantly
tuning in to a secret sweetness that thrills you subliminally. Again and
again you will slip into a delicious feeling that everything is unfolding
exactly as it should be. Warning! There are two factors that could possibly
undermine this blessing: 1. if you scare it away with blasts of cynicism; 2.
if you get greedy and try to force it to become bigger and stronger. So
please don't do those things!
Uncle Rob, this does feel kind of true to me, because I'm starting to figure out what works for me at this job. One of the things I love about being a librarian is that my day is full of variety and when it works, I do get a real thrill from it. Students applauded me yesterday and I still get a kind of silly smile on my face when I think of it.
I realized that I almost forgot
yuletide, which I really shouldn't do. My three nominations were for The Seven Realms books by Cinda Williams Chima, Tommy and Tuppence by Agatha Christie and the Magids series by Diana Wynne Jones. All of them were approved, which was a nice feeling.
This entry is also posted at http://ceitfianna.dreamwidth.org/353627.html. Please comment wherever you'd like.