Ready to stop
GEMINI (May 21-June 20): Is it conceivable that you've gotten a bit off
track? As I close my eyes and ask my higher powers for a psychic vision, I
get an impression of you staring at a blurry image of a symbol that is no
longer an accurate representation of your life goal. Now of course there's
a chance that my vision is completely unfounded. But if it does ring at
least somewhat true to you -- if it suggests a question worth asking
yourself -- I invite you to meditate on the possibility that you need to
update your understanding of what your ultimate target looks like.
Uncle Rob seems to know right where I am. I feel like I'm going the right direction but taking some time to stop and think and be for a bit is going to be good for me. How that translates for the moment is that starting tomorrow I will be driving east to my parents' place in Southern Delaware. I'll be there until about the 5th or so of May and will have car and net.
I would love to try and connect with some of you that live in the Southern Maryland area, but I don't have emails for all of you. My parents' live about a three hour drive from Baltimore so meeting up somewhere should be possible. If anything seems possible, please leave a comment or DM or something for plotting and planning.
Sorry for not being faster about this, but the last few weeks have been draining for me. Mainly positive but a lot of things that keep piling on. As my mother says its the feeling of being nibbled to death by ducks, all these little things that gnaw at you. Some of them didn't work out as I hoped such as the bank didn't credit me any of the money it took for the overdrafts but I do have my tax refund. So most of my current paycheck is going to end of the month bills but there's still the refund, which will go to fun things. I'm not sure what that will end up meaning, but I'll figure it out.
I think my body knows I'm about to have a break as I've been feeling sort of sick, not horribly sick just a little more tired and coughing more than makes sense with my allergies. I'm also having more unhelpful body thoughts which I dislike, but those always get mixed up in feeling tired and not quite right. My list of things to get done before I travel has gotten a lot smaller which is nice, but I'm currently dithering on paying bills and making muffins.
I know my sweet potato muffins are good but I had a conversation with my mom that made me think, well maybe its not worth it as they're not what my parents eat. This also ties into body thoughts as this semester I know I've put on weight as job stress has been getting to me and so I eat more and not always as well as I could. This is something I know I can work on with eating better and exercising and I will find a job. I could just freeze the sweet potato mash and make them later or something else so they're not wasted.
Now for positive stuff. Milliways is being wonderful of late with the fun Shindig that got a few plot things going and the prompt DE from the weekend. I'm slowly working through those and would actually love more. I've got two days of six hour drives ahead and thinking about prompts is a great way for me to fill the time. You can either leave them at the link or just drop them here.
For now I think I'm going to consider my list, possibly call my parents and work on getting rid of my headache and general tiredness. I hope this next month looks up for everyone. Too much suck going around the world, it needs to lay off my friends.
ETA: And now one of my ear lobes is split. Time for a break.
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track? As I close my eyes and ask my higher powers for a psychic vision, I
get an impression of you staring at a blurry image of a symbol that is no
longer an accurate representation of your life goal. Now of course there's
a chance that my vision is completely unfounded. But if it does ring at
least somewhat true to you -- if it suggests a question worth asking
yourself -- I invite you to meditate on the possibility that you need to
update your understanding of what your ultimate target looks like.
Uncle Rob seems to know right where I am. I feel like I'm going the right direction but taking some time to stop and think and be for a bit is going to be good for me. How that translates for the moment is that starting tomorrow I will be driving east to my parents' place in Southern Delaware. I'll be there until about the 5th or so of May and will have car and net.
I would love to try and connect with some of you that live in the Southern Maryland area, but I don't have emails for all of you. My parents' live about a three hour drive from Baltimore so meeting up somewhere should be possible. If anything seems possible, please leave a comment or DM or something for plotting and planning.
Sorry for not being faster about this, but the last few weeks have been draining for me. Mainly positive but a lot of things that keep piling on. As my mother says its the feeling of being nibbled to death by ducks, all these little things that gnaw at you. Some of them didn't work out as I hoped such as the bank didn't credit me any of the money it took for the overdrafts but I do have my tax refund. So most of my current paycheck is going to end of the month bills but there's still the refund, which will go to fun things. I'm not sure what that will end up meaning, but I'll figure it out.
I think my body knows I'm about to have a break as I've been feeling sort of sick, not horribly sick just a little more tired and coughing more than makes sense with my allergies. I'm also having more unhelpful body thoughts which I dislike, but those always get mixed up in feeling tired and not quite right. My list of things to get done before I travel has gotten a lot smaller which is nice, but I'm currently dithering on paying bills and making muffins.
I know my sweet potato muffins are good but I had a conversation with my mom that made me think, well maybe its not worth it as they're not what my parents eat. This also ties into body thoughts as this semester I know I've put on weight as job stress has been getting to me and so I eat more and not always as well as I could. This is something I know I can work on with eating better and exercising and I will find a job. I could just freeze the sweet potato mash and make them later or something else so they're not wasted.
Now for positive stuff. Milliways is being wonderful of late with the fun Shindig that got a few plot things going and the prompt DE from the weekend. I'm slowly working through those and would actually love more. I've got two days of six hour drives ahead and thinking about prompts is a great way for me to fill the time. You can either leave them at the link or just drop them here.
For now I think I'm going to consider my list, possibly call my parents and work on getting rid of my headache and general tiredness. I hope this next month looks up for everyone. Too much suck going around the world, it needs to lay off my friends.
ETA: And now one of my ear lobes is split. Time for a break.
This entry is also posted at http://ceitfianna.dreamwidth.org/334687.html. Please comment wherever you'd like.