Apr 08, 2009 15:12
This is from today's Washington Post and its got me thinking so I'm going to type it out and try and write out some of the complicated thoughts going through my head at the moment.
Gemini: You have moved into a new phase of life and yet you still feel the same way as you did way back when. It's not what you do in life that needs to change; its how you think about it. Put a positive spin on your history.
Applying to Michigan feels right to me as does becoming a librarian, I can look over all the jobs I've worked and so many of the ones that stood out are connected to libraries. From Swarthmore to the Seaport Museum, I love taking information and making it accessible and available and helping people find what they want. So all of this wonderful hopeful feeling is balanced by a not good body image.
This is very much my history and way back when because I keep thinking that I've got over the way my New Zealand boyfriend made me honestly feel not beautiful because I'd put on some weight and yet it comes back. I know that moments of transition are hard points to deal with my weight since I'm in so much flux and that I can, but the hardest part is somehow that sense of myself has been shifted.
I like this idea of put a positive spin on my history and I know that I can do that, I'm just not sure of how yet. Its important to me that when I get started on my MLS program that I'm not carrying a lot of baggage along with me, new starts are good and powerful things. So I think I'm going to keep writing and thinking about this as I take care of myself so that I can look back and forward and feel positive.
i want to be a librarian,
health,
shaping up,
being a woman today,
michigan,
finding my way,
new zealand