You say it best when you say nothing at all
My first week of school went wonderfully! I love my classes even though chemistry is going to be the hardest thing in this whole world! My fist lab for biology we went to Lester River in Duluth and took water samples. It was the neatest thing because that is like my dream job (yes it is still a dream even though it is my major).
I studiest super hard during the week so that I could go to Ashland and not have any worries other than what was going to go on there. It was an amazing weekend.
I played softball on friday, and I havent played in like 5 years or so. I gave it my all and it was a ton of fun.
Tracy came to pick me up from Jana's house, and we went on a walk down by this swamp. We had a really good talk, I needed to tell him why I left even though he totally knew already. Then I went to work with Karen, it was neat to see what she does. She gave me a tour of the City's garage.
I spent the night at Karen's and Josh and Tracy came to pick us up at 8 to go to the softball tournament. I had a great time there. I got to be a part of the team and I would have played but I didnt know I could so I wasnt wearing the right clothes. after they played there games we went to this guy's cabin and it was really beautiful there. It was such a prefect night.
I dont know what else to say about that whole situation. It just sucks being away from my best friend. She understands everything I am going through, and she is my support and courage. It also sucks because I didnt want to have any relationships during this part of my life, and yet I cant get away. Tracy told me he has fallen for me really hard. WHY? I didnt ask for this. He told me everthing is in my hands and he is NOT banking on the idea that we are going to be together forever, but he has really strong feelings for me. It just hurts because he makes me so happy, and I trust him more than anyother person, but I cant fall in love right now. But I know just avioding saying it isnt going to make it go away. I know he would give me all the time in the world to figure out who i am and what I want to do with my life, but is that even right? I cant be like ok I want you to be with me but we cant ever see each other and in the end after I figure out what I want it might not be you.
well I gotta go get my laundry, and do some Chemistry and HPHP.
I studiest super hard during the week so that I could go to Ashland and not have any worries other than what was going to go on there. It was an amazing weekend.
I played softball on friday, and I havent played in like 5 years or so. I gave it my all and it was a ton of fun.
Tracy came to pick me up from Jana's house, and we went on a walk down by this swamp. We had a really good talk, I needed to tell him why I left even though he totally knew already. Then I went to work with Karen, it was neat to see what she does. She gave me a tour of the City's garage.
I spent the night at Karen's and Josh and Tracy came to pick us up at 8 to go to the softball tournament. I had a great time there. I got to be a part of the team and I would have played but I didnt know I could so I wasnt wearing the right clothes. after they played there games we went to this guy's cabin and it was really beautiful there. It was such a prefect night.
I dont know what else to say about that whole situation. It just sucks being away from my best friend. She understands everything I am going through, and she is my support and courage. It also sucks because I didnt want to have any relationships during this part of my life, and yet I cant get away. Tracy told me he has fallen for me really hard. WHY? I didnt ask for this. He told me everthing is in my hands and he is NOT banking on the idea that we are going to be together forever, but he has really strong feelings for me. It just hurts because he makes me so happy, and I trust him more than anyother person, but I cant fall in love right now. But I know just avioding saying it isnt going to make it go away. I know he would give me all the time in the world to figure out who i am and what I want to do with my life, but is that even right? I cant be like ok I want you to be with me but we cant ever see each other and in the end after I figure out what I want it might not be you.
well I gotta go get my laundry, and do some Chemistry and HPHP.