I cant believe it's over
Last wendsday I went to Tracey and Josh's Softball game, and Tracey brought me home after. We had a very good talk and a lot of tears were cried. I told him that I cant have any distractions at school this year, and when I leave Washburn I am going to be gone and we are done. We kinda figured this the whole time I was there, I think that is why we were pushing to spend so much time together. But I told him I am not going to give him my number or anything. I know I am really stupid for doing this, but I know it is what I have to do! He told me that he doesnt want to come in between me and doing something I love, so I am glad that he understands. He told me that I will know what love is because this is it. I know it sounds crazy because we didnt know each other that long, but I knew him so well. He gave me the shirt he was wearing, and it smells so good. I miss him a lot.
I wasnt going to leave until sunday (yesterday) but I left the next morning (thursday). So Tracey and I never really got to say a complete goodbye, but Josh told me that was a good thing because he wouldnt have let me go. He said it himself that if he met me at the begining of the summer he would be going with me. See I just couldnt handle that I am 19 years old I dont need someone always needing to know where I am and who I am with. I still have a lot of things I need to learn and do before I could ever think about being with someone. I want to study abroad and that would be so hard to leave someone. Anyways.....
So now I am home. I havent really called anyone because I am just relaxing after just leaving everyone and everything in Washburn in such a rush. I didnt say goodbye to anyone. I just had to leave, and I cant explain that to anyone, but I know it is what I had to do.
I hung out with Jenny (my friend from school) the other night. That was fun I havent seen her in like 3 months, so we had a lot to talk about. Then yesterday I went over to Jesse's house. It was nice to see him too. Tomorrow I am going to hang out with Justi, that should be a good time.
two weeks till school and I cant wait!
Rascal Flatts is playing at the state fair and I have to go! I love them more than the world! I think Josh might come down to go with me, but we will see he has work and then there is getting around Tracey so he doesnt know Josh is coming to see me. Isnt that nice, I just really want someone to go with!!!!
I wasnt going to leave until sunday (yesterday) but I left the next morning (thursday). So Tracey and I never really got to say a complete goodbye, but Josh told me that was a good thing because he wouldnt have let me go. He said it himself that if he met me at the begining of the summer he would be going with me. See I just couldnt handle that I am 19 years old I dont need someone always needing to know where I am and who I am with. I still have a lot of things I need to learn and do before I could ever think about being with someone. I want to study abroad and that would be so hard to leave someone. Anyways.....
So now I am home. I havent really called anyone because I am just relaxing after just leaving everyone and everything in Washburn in such a rush. I didnt say goodbye to anyone. I just had to leave, and I cant explain that to anyone, but I know it is what I had to do.
I hung out with Jenny (my friend from school) the other night. That was fun I havent seen her in like 3 months, so we had a lot to talk about. Then yesterday I went over to Jesse's house. It was nice to see him too. Tomorrow I am going to hang out with Justi, that should be a good time.
two weeks till school and I cant wait!
Rascal Flatts is playing at the state fair and I have to go! I love them more than the world! I think Josh might come down to go with me, but we will see he has work and then there is getting around Tracey so he doesnt know Josh is coming to see me. Isnt that nice, I just really want someone to go with!!!!