like bringing a knife to a gun fight....
well, that's how i feel... like everything is turning out useless to me...
hehe, and i don't care... just wanna be happy and i am feeling like i am fading... and it is ummm... i don't know... killing me, i guess. getting numb... losing feeling on the insides... fuck... all i want is to get drunk now. the military sucks but i may get kicked out anyway, and i might consider the oppurtunity... i feel as if i am living in a communist government... and i cannot do what i want... like pot... something gun... i mean fun...
and girls... i have no clue or whatever about them... confusing... man, yea... almost confusing as life itself... *sighs should become a priest... live in a monastary in a small village in europe in the hills. yea... considering. . . . . sounds promising for my sanity. women are killing me... *sighs
i wanna die
hehe, and i don't care... just wanna be happy and i am feeling like i am fading... and it is ummm... i don't know... killing me, i guess. getting numb... losing feeling on the insides... fuck... all i want is to get drunk now. the military sucks but i may get kicked out anyway, and i might consider the oppurtunity... i feel as if i am living in a communist government... and i cannot do what i want... like pot... something gun... i mean fun...
and girls... i have no clue or whatever about them... confusing... man, yea... almost confusing as life itself... *sighs should become a priest... live in a monastary in a small village in europe in the hills. yea... considering. . . . . sounds promising for my sanity. women are killing me... *sighs
i wanna die