"words escape me (...) but they'll come back"
tonight was really really nice. so yeah i went to the square to meet halley. kurt and shawn drove up as i was getting to the parking lot so i walked with them. mmm squareness. quite boring for the most part. i was really bored out of my mind. then finally eliot got there with trevor and we soon decided that we'd go to eliots house since he said he had easy mac. but first i got a smoothie from javamonkey. so we went to his house. but it was sad because there was no easy mac. apparently his parents ate it all or something. i dunno. so we went to taco bell and then back to eliot's house to eat it. but i didnt' get anything to eat so i was kinda really bored while they were eating. then we left and halley and i got out at the square and matt got in and they went to citgo for supplies and i drove halley and danny and max to martin's house to wait for the citgo-runners. so we went out on his back patio type thing and sat there a while. and then they got there and i sat with eliot and drank the green apple twist taht they'd gotten cuz there wasn't any hard lemonade. and it was just a really nice night. nothing spectacular happened really that i can recall. i just drank my one smirnoff and eliot and i listened to music together. really chill. i dunno the drunk people were kinda crazy funnywise but no one did anything really stupid i dont think. daniel danced around with a broom a bit but whatever. so yeah one smirnoff is just enough to get me in a different state of brain but not enough for drunkenness and that's rather nice. it's cool to be enough in tune with your body to actually be content with a slightly altered state rather than needing to be thrown completely out of whack to even notice something's different. it's not just that i'm a lightweight. if i'm paying attention i can notice the slight change brought about by each and every single mouthful. anyways. so yeah the trees over head were pretty. and it was nice to be at a house and just stay there for a few hours. it was jsut before 9 when we got there because one of the first songs i listened to was "pianoman" and it starts out 'it's 9 o'clock on a saturday..." and thats' exactly what it was. and then we didnt' leave till like 11. i pretty much didn't move during that time except when martin had eliot pull out of the driveway and so i had to move so he could get up. nice to just flop and be buzzed and happy.
still when he had us leave at 11 i didnt' want to drive so halley and trevor and i went with eliot to church's and we three got a biscuit each while trevor ate chicken. and then he home and we found out the braves score (5-1 braves won!) so that trevor could say we were watching it at eliot's and then halley home cuz she had to go pee and then me back to my car cuz i was good by then and then i drove back to eliot's cuz we'd thought i was gonna take him to emory but then he stayed home cuz he has church tomorrow but then i had to give him the bottles to dispose of cuz they were in my trunk. and hopefully the trunk doesn't smell funny. yeah everything seemed to work out allright. tonight was a happy night. it was really nice to not be high on a saturday night for a change. even with the slight buzz i felt so much more clearheaded than hours and hours and hours after i smoke nowadays. i still like to but less often will definitely be called for. and the only reason i enjoy drinking is that i do so infrequently, in moderation, and when i can stay in one place for a long time. that's how smoking should be for me i think. not very often and the more i do the longer i should be able to stay wherever i am. anyways. i'm happy cuz i drank and had a very happy buzz with no bad effects at all. no unpleasant dizziness, no nausea, no headache, no nothing. just sittin there happy. peace, y'all.
still when he had us leave at 11 i didnt' want to drive so halley and trevor and i went with eliot to church's and we three got a biscuit each while trevor ate chicken. and then he home and we found out the braves score (5-1 braves won!) so that trevor could say we were watching it at eliot's and then halley home cuz she had to go pee and then me back to my car cuz i was good by then and then i drove back to eliot's cuz we'd thought i was gonna take him to emory but then he stayed home cuz he has church tomorrow but then i had to give him the bottles to dispose of cuz they were in my trunk. and hopefully the trunk doesn't smell funny. yeah everything seemed to work out allright. tonight was a happy night. it was really nice to not be high on a saturday night for a change. even with the slight buzz i felt so much more clearheaded than hours and hours and hours after i smoke nowadays. i still like to but less often will definitely be called for. and the only reason i enjoy drinking is that i do so infrequently, in moderation, and when i can stay in one place for a long time. that's how smoking should be for me i think. not very often and the more i do the longer i should be able to stay wherever i am. anyways. i'm happy cuz i drank and had a very happy buzz with no bad effects at all. no unpleasant dizziness, no nausea, no headache, no nothing. just sittin there happy. peace, y'all.