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Catie was buried yesterday, just one day after her passing. Her Aunt/Uncle(Nancy/Steve Wasserman)/Cousins (Noah and Natalie Wasserman) hosted a private Shiv'ah yesterday, and they are doing two more days at her parents house tonight and tomorrow. They also ran her obituary in both the Marin IJ and the SF Chronicle this morning:
Catherine Haviva Siegel June 24, 1981 ~ October 29, 2006 Catherine Haviva Siegel, beloved daughter of Gail and Lawrence Siegel; cherished sister of Elisabeth Siegel; loving granddaughter of Russell and Geraldine Jaloff and Alvin and Joyce Siegel; loving cousin of Jessica Jaloff and Natalie and Noah Wasserman; loving niece of Nancy and Steven Wasserman and Richard Jaloff; loving godchild of William and Brenda Winston and loving owner of her "Tiger." Adored by her extended family and friends. We all cherish her wonderful big smile, her intelligence and poetry, her infectious enthusiasm and most of all her loving and kind heart. Catie was the star of our lives and we will miss her every moment of our days. Please make donations in her honor to the "Catie Siegel Memorial Fund" which will be established for those things Catie so passionately believed in: Helping young people learn the joys of reading and writing and working for human rights. Donations may be sent to Steven J. Wasserman, Esq., 55 Shaver Street, Suite 240, San Rafael, CA 94901.
I'm holding things together relatively well-mostly throwing myself entirely into the Halloween thing in order to keep myself distracted. Of couse I'm still totally wrecked on the inside, and dealing with how much anger Catie's death has generated for me. I still feel selfish to be so angry. There are a few things that have particularly struck me about Catie's passing...just thinking about her last moments and what that must have been like has totally warped my mind. Anyone that's gotten "too wasted" knows what a scary experience that is...and just thinking about how scary her last moments must have been...alone, frightened...knowing that this was it. Its just been freaking me out. And thinking about how hard this must be for so many of her other friends. I had been reconnecting with her recently but still wouldn't say that we were especially close-mostly close due to the length of time we'd been friends. But Catie's close group of friends are the same kids I played with since kindergarden...and Sarah Smith's mom said that they've never really lost a friend, which I definately sympathize with. Just thinking about the grief that they must be experiencing is also driving me a bit crazy.
Luckily I've got really amazing friends and co workers who all keep checking in on me and doing their best to support me. Korey kept me distracted on Monday night with punkins and movies and conversation, and last night with my family was really really amazing. Just going to work through the grief one day at a time, step by step...
Catherine Haviva Siegel June 24, 1981 ~ October 29, 2006 Catherine Haviva Siegel, beloved daughter of Gail and Lawrence Siegel; cherished sister of Elisabeth Siegel; loving granddaughter of Russell and Geraldine Jaloff and Alvin and Joyce Siegel; loving cousin of Jessica Jaloff and Natalie and Noah Wasserman; loving niece of Nancy and Steven Wasserman and Richard Jaloff; loving godchild of William and Brenda Winston and loving owner of her "Tiger." Adored by her extended family and friends. We all cherish her wonderful big smile, her intelligence and poetry, her infectious enthusiasm and most of all her loving and kind heart. Catie was the star of our lives and we will miss her every moment of our days. Please make donations in her honor to the "Catie Siegel Memorial Fund" which will be established for those things Catie so passionately believed in: Helping young people learn the joys of reading and writing and working for human rights. Donations may be sent to Steven J. Wasserman, Esq., 55 Shaver Street, Suite 240, San Rafael, CA 94901.
I'm holding things together relatively well-mostly throwing myself entirely into the Halloween thing in order to keep myself distracted. Of couse I'm still totally wrecked on the inside, and dealing with how much anger Catie's death has generated for me. I still feel selfish to be so angry. There are a few things that have particularly struck me about Catie's passing...just thinking about her last moments and what that must have been like has totally warped my mind. Anyone that's gotten "too wasted" knows what a scary experience that is...and just thinking about how scary her last moments must have been...alone, frightened...knowing that this was it. Its just been freaking me out. And thinking about how hard this must be for so many of her other friends. I had been reconnecting with her recently but still wouldn't say that we were especially close-mostly close due to the length of time we'd been friends. But Catie's close group of friends are the same kids I played with since kindergarden...and Sarah Smith's mom said that they've never really lost a friend, which I definately sympathize with. Just thinking about the grief that they must be experiencing is also driving me a bit crazy.
Luckily I've got really amazing friends and co workers who all keep checking in on me and doing their best to support me. Korey kept me distracted on Monday night with punkins and movies and conversation, and last night with my family was really really amazing. Just going to work through the grief one day at a time, step by step...