The Ugly Truth
I went into the doctor last Friday to make sure all my meds are in order before the health insurance runs out, and as I was being weighed I looked at the scale.
Oh
My
God
There are so many health problems that are related to being overweight, and we all know what they are. Add to that being diabetic, and yeah, I have some issues. Issues that need to be addressed.
It's hard, because a)all the women on my mother's side of the family are heavy. All of them. There's a huge genetic component to why I am the way I am, as a white fat diabetic woman. b) there is no real guarantee that the weight won't come back. Of all the people who diet every year, almost 90% gain it all back in five years or less. That is not encouraging. Like the diabetes, there's no fix for the fatness, I am going to have to deal with it every day for a very long time. c) it's very very VERY hard to admit that 1) I am this heavy and 2)I got myself here, all by myself. Yes, there are underlying factors, but I could be paying attention and care to myself and have a much smaller weight problem than I do.
SO many of the stuff I deal with about "not feeling so hot" are directly tied to this. My diabetes would be much easier to control, my energy level would be higher, I could go do more things if I didn't have to carry around all the surplus baggage.
It's time to change my habits, let go of pretending I don't care, and start acting like I matter enough to myself to be more vigilant about what I'm putting into my body and what I can do with it.
There's no magic pill. It's changing my diet, getting a lot more exercise, and remembering that it's for the rest of my life.
That TOTALLY sucks.
But I cannot weigh 287 pounds ever again. That number HAS to come down.
Oh
My
God
There are so many health problems that are related to being overweight, and we all know what they are. Add to that being diabetic, and yeah, I have some issues. Issues that need to be addressed.
It's hard, because a)all the women on my mother's side of the family are heavy. All of them. There's a huge genetic component to why I am the way I am, as a white fat diabetic woman. b) there is no real guarantee that the weight won't come back. Of all the people who diet every year, almost 90% gain it all back in five years or less. That is not encouraging. Like the diabetes, there's no fix for the fatness, I am going to have to deal with it every day for a very long time. c) it's very very VERY hard to admit that 1) I am this heavy and 2)I got myself here, all by myself. Yes, there are underlying factors, but I could be paying attention and care to myself and have a much smaller weight problem than I do.
SO many of the stuff I deal with about "not feeling so hot" are directly tied to this. My diabetes would be much easier to control, my energy level would be higher, I could go do more things if I didn't have to carry around all the surplus baggage.
It's time to change my habits, let go of pretending I don't care, and start acting like I matter enough to myself to be more vigilant about what I'm putting into my body and what I can do with it.
There's no magic pill. It's changing my diet, getting a lot more exercise, and remembering that it's for the rest of my life.
That TOTALLY sucks.
But I cannot weigh 287 pounds ever again. That number HAS to come down.