I don't seem to be moving past this.
The Shadow Unit thing, I mean.
Why? I've identified a few reasons.
1. I identified with Daphne on a few points immediately. I think there's something in the character profile about understanding people but having trouble applying it in social situations? And her anxiety and insecurity in the first episode? It just clicked. I love Chaz, and Sol and Hafidha are great, and I like everyone else, but Daphne's the one I identified with. Even if we didn't really have that much in common, there was still that click.
2. I've already cut my losses with Shadow Unit once, when 'Overkill' traumatized me. I decided to give it another chance, and I'm glad I did, but I'm better at forgiving than forgetting. This thing hurt you once -- keep your guard up. And rightfully so. Now... This thing hurt you twice.
3. This is fiction. In fiction, the authors control what happens. This was not luck of the draw, dangerous job, bad things happen, life sucks and then you die, or even an actor leaving -- this was a deliberate choice to kill a character as a plot catalyst.
3a. With Shadow Unit, more than most media, I have a hard time engaging with the material when I'm displeased with the creators. They're too close. Heck, it's why I'm making this little speech here rather than at the Shadow Unit bboard -- it seems really rude to go in and rant at someone on their own board.
So what now? I don't know. I still have some Alchemy stories to tell. I'm still curious about where the Shadow Unit mythos will go, and about the answers to some of those unanswered questions. But right now, anyway, I find I don't really want to know where the characters are going, don't want to see this development triggered by a twist I didn't like.
I don't know.
Why? I've identified a few reasons.
1. I identified with Daphne on a few points immediately. I think there's something in the character profile about understanding people but having trouble applying it in social situations? And her anxiety and insecurity in the first episode? It just clicked. I love Chaz, and Sol and Hafidha are great, and I like everyone else, but Daphne's the one I identified with. Even if we didn't really have that much in common, there was still that click.
2. I've already cut my losses with Shadow Unit once, when 'Overkill' traumatized me. I decided to give it another chance, and I'm glad I did, but I'm better at forgiving than forgetting. This thing hurt you once -- keep your guard up. And rightfully so. Now... This thing hurt you twice.
3. This is fiction. In fiction, the authors control what happens. This was not luck of the draw, dangerous job, bad things happen, life sucks and then you die, or even an actor leaving -- this was a deliberate choice to kill a character as a plot catalyst.
3a. With Shadow Unit, more than most media, I have a hard time engaging with the material when I'm displeased with the creators. They're too close. Heck, it's why I'm making this little speech here rather than at the Shadow Unit bboard -- it seems really rude to go in and rant at someone on their own board.
So what now? I don't know. I still have some Alchemy stories to tell. I'm still curious about where the Shadow Unit mythos will go, and about the answers to some of those unanswered questions. But right now, anyway, I find I don't really want to know where the characters are going, don't want to see this development triggered by a twist I didn't like.
I don't know.