(no subject)
*
The reality of it all I, myself, just could not take. You're one person and I'm completely the other. I don't exactly know what kept drawing me back to you. And now I'm accepting everything. How my feelings were not strong enough to break that invisible barrier. That compatibility is no where near perfect. With your schedule, hobbies, and priorities, I understand why you don't have time for any emotions; let along someone else in your life. It's ok, I understand, I give you mad respect for that. It just makes me sad that it had to end this way. How our own little enigma remains unsolved. Again it's ok, we're both cowards. Ironically everything I used to wish for is now something that'll f*** everything up. I don't want classes with you and I hope to not see you during our passing period commutes. Not because I hate you or anything in that perspective, but the sight of your face is a reminder of my failure. I just don't know how to deal with you anymore. I'm sorry to tell you that I've given up. There is nothing worth more then my happiness and happiness you did not give me. But I still thank you because I benefit a lot from you. Just, whenever your ready to fall, then I'll fall again. But I am going to tell you that I'll be just on every decision I'll make dealing with you. I won't let go because you came back to something that could of been yours. I don't promise anything. So go on and live your life, while I start mines.
Damn.... if only you read this.