Yep! I'm back...after a very long umm sabatical?
haha...way way way just kidding about the whole title thing, BUT i have been gone for quite a long time! there are sooo much things to catch everyone up on and yes to bitch about!
so um, clemson isn't all that it is cracked up to be, i am not happy at all so i am applying to schools AGAIN and having to go through the whole process again, but I have my heart set on Coastal Carolina (i don't know why, its hard to explain, but i LOVE it!)...so i moved in on August 20th (the day from hell) and cried every day for the next three weeks...i dropped out of rush but then got a bid from Kappa Alpha Theta. The sorority is okay, but the girls I just absolutely LOVE! they are sooo much fun, and I know that this is where i'm supposed to be! I'm moving onto the Sorority hall next semester because my roommate and i don't get along and i can't stand her. she is absolutely horrible, bitches about everything, and sleep constantly (but then claims to get no sleep...hmm??) so, yeah i'm moving out...I haven't packed anything at all and i move out on Friday...its gonna be fun!
i hope that 2nd semester will get better since I will be away from this horrible situation i am in (drama queen yes, but i have to be!) I will know if i get into Coastal in late January early February and i will let everyone know, i don't know what i will do if i have to stay here for another year...no one understands how bad it is, but i have realized that i came into it with too high of expectations. i guess i've learned my lesson....its not that i don't want to like clemson, but its nothing that i expected i haven't made the friends i thought i would (actually none at all) and i just would be happier somewhere else. i know i sound horribly pathetic and such a downer on the whole college situation, but i really hate it..i wish it was still cool not to go to college!
so christmas break is in 2 days for me, but within those 2 days i have 3 exams to study for: political science, spanish, and math...none of which are going to be easy! my econ exam today was extremely hard and i studied until about 4 in the morning after studying all day yesterday and the day before...college sucks! but my history exam last saturday night (yes, saturday night) was really easy..but of course it was on stuff that i had learned in AP US! oh, and facebook, AIM and myspace are keeping me from studying! it will be those 3 things fault if i don't pass!!! haha i cannot wait to get home and sleep in my own bed and see russell!
gah, i miss him soo much. i can't do this whole long distance thing for another year, it is going to be soo hard if he doesnt come home for school or go to coastal (which he is applying there too). no one understands how truly hard it is this year, last year was different because i was in high school and he was a freshman and didn't feel like he had obligations, while this year he is living in the fraternity house (which i HATE) and he feels like he has to be a part of everything. and on top of the stupid fraternity, his STUPID ex-girlfriend who has been broken up with for almost 2 years has magically appeared and they talk now almost everyday and she says that she loves him and misses him. but with all of that said, you would think it would be okay for me to talk to boys..but NO! i can't, but i do anyways, but i mean you don't have an ex girlfriend saying that she loves you and then continue to think that yall are just friends. i HATE her...i don't hate anyone, but i HATE her she is horrible and she for the longest time was obviously to the fact that we were dating. i wish i could talk to her and tell her to leave him alone because he is not getting back together with her, he is with me FOREVER!!!!!! and she needs to get over herself and move the fuck on! (this is a very touchy subject!)
i hate stupid girls who are obviously, and i hate stupid boys who can't grow up and gain control of the things in their life when they are almost 20 years old!!!! who would have thought that i would be more mature than russell and i'm a whole year younger than he is.
anyways, enough ranting and raving....i cannot wait until eleanor, stefan, and emily get home! i miss yall soooo much!!!!! my life is empty without the little things that ya'll did! i miss you, i can't believe its been a whole semester since we have seen each other! stef- i miss you like crazy, if you need someone to pick you up from the airport i'll come pick you up!!! i can't wait to get one of your giant hugs!!! i love you!!! eleanor- i miss you, my days are incomplete without you...i miss the good ole government days. em- i know that you are just in charleston, but still...you are my best friend and have been since 1st grade, i love you and i can't wait until you come home!!! we are definitely going to hang out and maybe play 3 days worth of monopoly?! (maybe??) haha I MISS YOU!!
*the best days are the ones where you can say, i'll see you tomorrow!*
so um, clemson isn't all that it is cracked up to be, i am not happy at all so i am applying to schools AGAIN and having to go through the whole process again, but I have my heart set on Coastal Carolina (i don't know why, its hard to explain, but i LOVE it!)...so i moved in on August 20th (the day from hell) and cried every day for the next three weeks...i dropped out of rush but then got a bid from Kappa Alpha Theta. The sorority is okay, but the girls I just absolutely LOVE! they are sooo much fun, and I know that this is where i'm supposed to be! I'm moving onto the Sorority hall next semester because my roommate and i don't get along and i can't stand her. she is absolutely horrible, bitches about everything, and sleep constantly (but then claims to get no sleep...hmm??) so, yeah i'm moving out...I haven't packed anything at all and i move out on Friday...its gonna be fun!
i hope that 2nd semester will get better since I will be away from this horrible situation i am in (drama queen yes, but i have to be!) I will know if i get into Coastal in late January early February and i will let everyone know, i don't know what i will do if i have to stay here for another year...no one understands how bad it is, but i have realized that i came into it with too high of expectations. i guess i've learned my lesson....its not that i don't want to like clemson, but its nothing that i expected i haven't made the friends i thought i would (actually none at all) and i just would be happier somewhere else. i know i sound horribly pathetic and such a downer on the whole college situation, but i really hate it..i wish it was still cool not to go to college!
so christmas break is in 2 days for me, but within those 2 days i have 3 exams to study for: political science, spanish, and math...none of which are going to be easy! my econ exam today was extremely hard and i studied until about 4 in the morning after studying all day yesterday and the day before...college sucks! but my history exam last saturday night (yes, saturday night) was really easy..but of course it was on stuff that i had learned in AP US! oh, and facebook, AIM and myspace are keeping me from studying! it will be those 3 things fault if i don't pass!!! haha i cannot wait to get home and sleep in my own bed and see russell!
gah, i miss him soo much. i can't do this whole long distance thing for another year, it is going to be soo hard if he doesnt come home for school or go to coastal (which he is applying there too). no one understands how truly hard it is this year, last year was different because i was in high school and he was a freshman and didn't feel like he had obligations, while this year he is living in the fraternity house (which i HATE) and he feels like he has to be a part of everything. and on top of the stupid fraternity, his STUPID ex-girlfriend who has been broken up with for almost 2 years has magically appeared and they talk now almost everyday and she says that she loves him and misses him. but with all of that said, you would think it would be okay for me to talk to boys..but NO! i can't, but i do anyways, but i mean you don't have an ex girlfriend saying that she loves you and then continue to think that yall are just friends. i HATE her...i don't hate anyone, but i HATE her she is horrible and she for the longest time was obviously to the fact that we were dating. i wish i could talk to her and tell her to leave him alone because he is not getting back together with her, he is with me FOREVER!!!!!! and she needs to get over herself and move the fuck on! (this is a very touchy subject!)
i hate stupid girls who are obviously, and i hate stupid boys who can't grow up and gain control of the things in their life when they are almost 20 years old!!!! who would have thought that i would be more mature than russell and i'm a whole year younger than he is.
anyways, enough ranting and raving....i cannot wait until eleanor, stefan, and emily get home! i miss yall soooo much!!!!! my life is empty without the little things that ya'll did! i miss you, i can't believe its been a whole semester since we have seen each other! stef- i miss you like crazy, if you need someone to pick you up from the airport i'll come pick you up!!! i can't wait to get one of your giant hugs!!! i love you!!! eleanor- i miss you, my days are incomplete without you...i miss the good ole government days. em- i know that you are just in charleston, but still...you are my best friend and have been since 1st grade, i love you and i can't wait until you come home!!! we are definitely going to hang out and maybe play 3 days worth of monopoly?! (maybe??) haha I MISS YOU!!
*the best days are the ones where you can say, i'll see you tomorrow!*