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THE TIME CAPSULE MEME
year 2010
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So. Hi. *waves*
This year something crazy, insane, and brilliant happened. We met!
I was a little cautious to talk to you at first (I have no idea why... foreshadowing a little maybe...) but once we started... I kind of knew that I was in trouble.
You get me in such a crazy way. I really really can not explain how we can be so alike and yet go almost 20 years without knowing each other. Every second of knowing you has been... the best second of my life. (Which is a little sad... I mean. I really needed you. There is no denying that.) You can calm me down in a way that no one else has ever been able to. And you can rile me up better than anyone else too.
Because we've had our rough patches. There's no need to go into those I guess. I'm sure we both remember them. I'm sure there will be more. Like if you're reading this and it's still 2010. Because you promised. (But really, if you are... it's ok. I think I can live with it.)
If it IS 2011, however. I really really hope you're texting, calling, looking over at me, telling me that I'm a silly goose for almost forgetting this. Because I am. A silly goose that is.
I hope. I hope you're happy. That's all I want for you. I want you to be as happy as you possibly can be. I want you to feel loved and adored and just. I need for you to have a great life.
Please, don't settle because you think it's as good as it's going to get. Don't forfeit your own happiness for someone else. Not for anyone. Because you're the one who deserves it. You've earned some happiness.
Over this next year, I want to be right there with you. Whether that has to be mentally, or if by some lucky chance it can be physically, doesn't matter. I'm not going to let you run away from me. You're my best friend first and I will try my hardest to make sure we stay best friends no matter what.
Please remember that you're beautiful, no matter what anyone says. You're so brilliant, sometimes it leaves me a little speechless. Your art is amazing, you're a brilliant writer, and just a wonderful person. And so very lovely. In my mind, people like you shouldn't even exist on earth. You're the closest thing to an angel that I've ever known.
I should probably mention that it is 3:00AM here right now. But I knew I would forget to type this and post it if I didn't do it tonight. I even paused SPN to do it, that's how much you mean to me. It's a good one too, Dean going back in time to when his parents were young. Season four.
I can't wait until you get me into Soaps, until you show me around New York, until I get you out to LA for a nice little trip. I can't wait to marathon all of our shows together, in the same room, on the same TV. I can't wait to someday meet Emmly. Maybe even Wendy. And even though I don't touch, I can't wait to hug you. I don't know. It seems like something that needs to happen.
I hope that we've talked in the past year, that we aren't avoiding things. No matter what the outcome, I hope we've at least figured some things out. I don't want to not have you in my life. And I'm so happy to just be around you that whatever you want... I can be happy with.
I love you Hailey. More than I should, but sometimes... sometimes I think that it's ok. And I hope I'm still saying that in a year, in two years, or in ten years.
I love you. <3<3<3
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