I cant get enough
Either I just like bitching a lot as of late, or I've actually been bitten with a bug that has me wanting to write on here more than I did in past attempts to keep a lj.
I mean, I posted 3 times yesterday, and here I am, less than 12 hours later, posting again.
Weird.
At least for me.
Im not looking forward to going back to school. Yea, I took this semester off to figure out what I want to do in life, and I've found a niche that works for me, but at the same time Im unable to bring myself to actually enjoying going through business classes.
Yes, its knowledge, and knowledge is good. I like learning.
But its statistical, factual, its more akin to science and mathematics, which though I am good with, I loathe.
The creative part of me is screaming in terror at the thought of going through math classes and other such shite for the sake of this cafe idea.
But tough shit.
The more I fear it, the more I realize that it's a challenge. Be it a challenge I've posed to myself or one that Fate has seen fit to put in front of me. I dont know or care, but I know that if I truly want to do this, if I really want to follow through with this plan, I must do this.
Not so much for the fact of getting a degree. I could not care any less about that. Degrees mean absolutely nothing to me. I am more concerned with the knowledge that this course of study is going to arm me with.
I know I find no pleasure in doing accounting shit. The pleasure I get from doing such things comes from the fact that Im doing something productive and relevant, something useful. Productivity.
So maybe thats the key to doing this. It's not going to be pleasurable for me by any means, but... keeping the fact that this is a necissary step to making a dream become reality.
...
I've something to ponder for a while.
I mean, I posted 3 times yesterday, and here I am, less than 12 hours later, posting again.
Weird.
At least for me.
Im not looking forward to going back to school. Yea, I took this semester off to figure out what I want to do in life, and I've found a niche that works for me, but at the same time Im unable to bring myself to actually enjoying going through business classes.
Yes, its knowledge, and knowledge is good. I like learning.
But its statistical, factual, its more akin to science and mathematics, which though I am good with, I loathe.
The creative part of me is screaming in terror at the thought of going through math classes and other such shite for the sake of this cafe idea.
But tough shit.
The more I fear it, the more I realize that it's a challenge. Be it a challenge I've posed to myself or one that Fate has seen fit to put in front of me. I dont know or care, but I know that if I truly want to do this, if I really want to follow through with this plan, I must do this.
Not so much for the fact of getting a degree. I could not care any less about that. Degrees mean absolutely nothing to me. I am more concerned with the knowledge that this course of study is going to arm me with.
I know I find no pleasure in doing accounting shit. The pleasure I get from doing such things comes from the fact that Im doing something productive and relevant, something useful. Productivity.
So maybe thats the key to doing this. It's not going to be pleasurable for me by any means, but... keeping the fact that this is a necissary step to making a dream become reality.
...
I've something to ponder for a while.