First Post of the Year
I'm spending the new year evening without Garion (my PC) today. At around 7:00 pm, while I was playing a new game I bought from Steam called 'Trine', the monitor just blacked out and went on to 'no signal' mode. It turns out the CPU had turned off and no amount of pressing the power button could bring it back on. I'm thinking the power supply must be busted, so I'm bringing it tomorrow to Cyberzone to have it checked.
PC or no PC though, I've resolved to go on with the tradition of ending/starting the year with a post. So, for the first time, I'm writing it on the work laptop (I'm still undecided on it's name).
I think the holidays was pretty great this year, and that surprised me since I wasn't feeling the holiday spirit early on in the month - Heck, not even after the Simbang Gabi started mid-month - but all's well now ^_^ I'm not sure what put me into the mood, but I think seeing my friends when the vacation kicked in had something to do with it (Cheeese!!). That, and getting great gifts helped too XD I pretty much got the top things on my wishlist (Thanks to the people who gave them to me! *hugs you*).
All in all, I enjoyed my 2-week vacation. And I plan to make most of the 3 days I still have left. Christmas week was pretty busy. I was mostly out of the house for much of the week, meeting friends, buying gifts and also getting my driver's license (Yes, I'm now a licensed driver. Woohoo!) and then going to Lucena to visit my mom's side of the family. In contrast, New Year week was pretty laid back. I spent almost the whole week in the house watching series, playing PC games and sleeping.
The last day of 2009 was spent at home, as usual. All of us in the family are in agreement that it just doesn't feel right to leave the house empty at the turn of the year. This is the second year we're celebrating without having our own fireworks, which I think is just fine. Besides saving up on money, it also made us appreciate the fact that we're practically living on a hill. Going to the back of our house gives you a great view of the parts of our area with an elevation lower than ours (which is pretty much majority of our village and probably the 2 adjoining ones too) and all the fireworks that will be lit up there. The result is a pretty wonderful fireworks display, which we would have missed if we had our own to light up since we do that in front of our house - the side without a view.
I don't know what is it about fireworks, but watching all of the light and color burst in the sky has always made me feel a mix of emotions. It's just the sort of thing that triggers memories of the year that had passed with all its ups and downs, and at the same time leaving you giddy and inspired about the new year that has come.
Looking back, I think 2009 was the year of learning to let go. It's learning how to come to terms with the fact that things will not always stay the same no matter how much you want it to, and that's fine because these changes are the things that make us grow and move forward to become a better person. For me, letting go meant saying goodbye to a person, changing roles, and handing over the reins of my team to another. It's not easy. In fact, it's rather painful because I've given a part of myself to all of them, but I believe it's going to be all right in the end. As said in one of my favorite fics - everyone loses a piece of themselves in someone or something, and it isn’t about ever getting back that piece. It’s about coming to terms with the fact that that one piece you don’t have doesn’t make it lost. So, even if things aren't the same anymore, everything I've had to let go of will have an indelible mark in my existence.
Having said that, I'm looking forward to 2010. I think a big decision is on the way for me. It's a bit scary, because I know it will probably set how my life will go for the next few years, maybe even more. But I know I need to face it. And I know with all the people who love me and support me, I will make the best out of whatever choice I will make.
PC or no PC though, I've resolved to go on with the tradition of ending/starting the year with a post. So, for the first time, I'm writing it on the work laptop (I'm still undecided on it's name).
I think the holidays was pretty great this year, and that surprised me since I wasn't feeling the holiday spirit early on in the month - Heck, not even after the Simbang Gabi started mid-month - but all's well now ^_^ I'm not sure what put me into the mood, but I think seeing my friends when the vacation kicked in had something to do with it (Cheeese!!). That, and getting great gifts helped too XD I pretty much got the top things on my wishlist (Thanks to the people who gave them to me! *hugs you*).
All in all, I enjoyed my 2-week vacation. And I plan to make most of the 3 days I still have left. Christmas week was pretty busy. I was mostly out of the house for much of the week, meeting friends, buying gifts and also getting my driver's license (Yes, I'm now a licensed driver. Woohoo!) and then going to Lucena to visit my mom's side of the family. In contrast, New Year week was pretty laid back. I spent almost the whole week in the house watching series, playing PC games and sleeping.
The last day of 2009 was spent at home, as usual. All of us in the family are in agreement that it just doesn't feel right to leave the house empty at the turn of the year. This is the second year we're celebrating without having our own fireworks, which I think is just fine. Besides saving up on money, it also made us appreciate the fact that we're practically living on a hill. Going to the back of our house gives you a great view of the parts of our area with an elevation lower than ours (which is pretty much majority of our village and probably the 2 adjoining ones too) and all the fireworks that will be lit up there. The result is a pretty wonderful fireworks display, which we would have missed if we had our own to light up since we do that in front of our house - the side without a view.
I don't know what is it about fireworks, but watching all of the light and color burst in the sky has always made me feel a mix of emotions. It's just the sort of thing that triggers memories of the year that had passed with all its ups and downs, and at the same time leaving you giddy and inspired about the new year that has come.
Looking back, I think 2009 was the year of learning to let go. It's learning how to come to terms with the fact that things will not always stay the same no matter how much you want it to, and that's fine because these changes are the things that make us grow and move forward to become a better person. For me, letting go meant saying goodbye to a person, changing roles, and handing over the reins of my team to another. It's not easy. In fact, it's rather painful because I've given a part of myself to all of them, but I believe it's going to be all right in the end. As said in one of my favorite fics - everyone loses a piece of themselves in someone or something, and it isn’t about ever getting back that piece. It’s about coming to terms with the fact that that one piece you don’t have doesn’t make it lost. So, even if things aren't the same anymore, everything I've had to let go of will have an indelible mark in my existence.
Having said that, I'm looking forward to 2010. I think a big decision is on the way for me. It's a bit scary, because I know it will probably set how my life will go for the next few years, maybe even more. But I know I need to face it. And I know with all the people who love me and support me, I will make the best out of whatever choice I will make.