Day 20
hey everyone, I'm sorry it's been so long since I've updated or commented. I was out of state until late Sunday, and then I was just overwhelmed with emotions and homework. I should be doing homework right now too ;p meh.
I've been keeping on track food wise.. did very good while out of state and these past few days. I hadn't worked out in a few days though. Those emotions getting to me again of course. Yesterday I worked out though :) So hopefully I'm getting back on track. Today is day 20 of the challenge, which means tomorrow - if you stuck with your habit the entire time .. the habit should be a "habit". I didn't do too well, so i'm glad I made this challenge 42 days as a whole because I need it.
Emotional destruction! Its so annoying. I get upset and then I forget to work out. Then I realize how fat I am again.. and get extremely pissed off at myself. I'm so sick of being this way. I'm healthy now - Great. Like I tell so many people who want to give me 'tips' on how to lose weight.. I've been eating healthly since pretty much last August. I had my ups and downs, but since January I've been doing almost perfectly with eating. I've done awesomely with water since our challenge started. When I saw my Doctor last December - he told me my health was perfect except for being overweight. No high cholesterol, no high blood pressure, no unhealthy eating.. I just need to lose the weight.
What does this mean? I'm not gaining.. I'm not losing either. I need to start focusing on working out. I got the healthy eating donw, now I need to focus on the hard part. The losing what fat I already have.
Ugh, I can do this. I know I can. I'm a strong girl, I'm an intelligent determined person.. I know I can do this. I will damnit.
I know I've made so many posts similar to this, but I just need to stop forgetting what I really need, I need to stop forgetting what is keeping me generally unhappy. I need to do what I need to do..
I hope the rest of you are doing awesome, and I want to thank all of you who have added me as your friend. I appreciate it greatly, and I hope I'm here for you as much as you need me to be. I remember when I started this journal and I only had 2-4 friends and I was so happy when it went up to 7 friends.. before I could realize it I have now 28 friends. Its awesome. I'm so glad all of you are here with me on this journey.
Big hugs all around.
I've been keeping on track food wise.. did very good while out of state and these past few days. I hadn't worked out in a few days though. Those emotions getting to me again of course. Yesterday I worked out though :) So hopefully I'm getting back on track. Today is day 20 of the challenge, which means tomorrow - if you stuck with your habit the entire time .. the habit should be a "habit". I didn't do too well, so i'm glad I made this challenge 42 days as a whole because I need it.
Emotional destruction! Its so annoying. I get upset and then I forget to work out. Then I realize how fat I am again.. and get extremely pissed off at myself. I'm so sick of being this way. I'm healthy now - Great. Like I tell so many people who want to give me 'tips' on how to lose weight.. I've been eating healthly since pretty much last August. I had my ups and downs, but since January I've been doing almost perfectly with eating. I've done awesomely with water since our challenge started. When I saw my Doctor last December - he told me my health was perfect except for being overweight. No high cholesterol, no high blood pressure, no unhealthy eating.. I just need to lose the weight.
What does this mean? I'm not gaining.. I'm not losing either. I need to start focusing on working out. I got the healthy eating donw, now I need to focus on the hard part. The losing what fat I already have.
Ugh, I can do this. I know I can. I'm a strong girl, I'm an intelligent determined person.. I know I can do this. I will damnit.
I know I've made so many posts similar to this, but I just need to stop forgetting what I really need, I need to stop forgetting what is keeping me generally unhappy. I need to do what I need to do..
I hope the rest of you are doing awesome, and I want to thank all of you who have added me as your friend. I appreciate it greatly, and I hope I'm here for you as much as you need me to be. I remember when I started this journal and I only had 2-4 friends and I was so happy when it went up to 7 friends.. before I could realize it I have now 28 friends. Its awesome. I'm so glad all of you are here with me on this journey.
Big hugs all around.