I haven't posted... you didn't want to hear it... trust me.
I still shake the feeling of nauseas loss... So I feel sick to my stomach all the time and can't sleep or eat well. I've lost over 10 pounds in 3 weeks... I am tired of feeling sick, sad, tired, and unworthy...
Some of my friends have been really supportive. I'm sorry I'm not as much fun as I usually am right now. It's just hard... But I am so thankful for you guys' understanding and for you guys still forcing me to be social and stuff. It helps, and I appreciate it more than words can say.
He's so confused, and until that's cleared up, I will be. I don't know what to do... But God knows I can't let him hurt... or be sad... or be sick... or be lonely... ugh... And I can't be angry about it. All I can do is hurt, and hope and pray he gets through this soon...
I love him too much... why do I do this to myself? Raaaah...
Sidenote:
DREAM GIRLS IS AMAZING!!! Loved it, you all should go. Take me with you. Anywhere, anytime, for anything. Call me. I want to go, too. *hugs*
Some of my friends have been really supportive. I'm sorry I'm not as much fun as I usually am right now. It's just hard... But I am so thankful for you guys' understanding and for you guys still forcing me to be social and stuff. It helps, and I appreciate it more than words can say.
He's so confused, and until that's cleared up, I will be. I don't know what to do... But God knows I can't let him hurt... or be sad... or be sick... or be lonely... ugh... And I can't be angry about it. All I can do is hurt, and hope and pray he gets through this soon...
I love him too much... why do I do this to myself? Raaaah...
Sidenote:
DREAM GIRLS IS AMAZING!!! Loved it, you all should go. Take me with you. Anywhere, anytime, for anything. Call me. I want to go, too. *hugs*