Yeah...so...
Tash's birthday extravaganza is almost upon me. We must stroll on over to the LCBO for some drinkage for tomorrow night. I'm not sure what club we're going to be going to at midnight tomorrow (well..technically sunday but whatev). I guess we'll figure that out tomorrow.
I'm completely broke. It sucks. I so need a job, but it's not friggin easy in this city to get one. So this weekend, I will drown my sorrows in a few drinks and attempt to have a good time, all the time wondering if I'll be able to afford to feed myself for the next few weeks. This friggin' sucks. My life is not going exactly as I had planned. I HATE having to ask my mom for money, I hate depending on someone else so I can eat, and just exist. I've been near tears lately just thinking about this whole messed up situation, and I'm at a loss for what to do. As much as I don't want to go back to Alberta, I'm realizing staying here may not be an option that much longer, which scares me to death. I don't want to return home as a 'failure', and go back to working a menial job for minimum wage while I am still living at home.
The only thing that is looking positive in my life is the formation of the company with my friends. I really hope this will take off and then I won't feel like such a failure. I really don't want it to be a failed venture, I would like something in my life to finally turn around into a positive. I definitely believe in Karma, and I've tried my hardest to live the best life I can, but nothing ever positive comes back in my direction. Always negative.
What a depressing journal entry.
I'm completely broke. It sucks. I so need a job, but it's not friggin easy in this city to get one. So this weekend, I will drown my sorrows in a few drinks and attempt to have a good time, all the time wondering if I'll be able to afford to feed myself for the next few weeks. This friggin' sucks. My life is not going exactly as I had planned. I HATE having to ask my mom for money, I hate depending on someone else so I can eat, and just exist. I've been near tears lately just thinking about this whole messed up situation, and I'm at a loss for what to do. As much as I don't want to go back to Alberta, I'm realizing staying here may not be an option that much longer, which scares me to death. I don't want to return home as a 'failure', and go back to working a menial job for minimum wage while I am still living at home.
The only thing that is looking positive in my life is the formation of the company with my friends. I really hope this will take off and then I won't feel like such a failure. I really don't want it to be a failed venture, I would like something in my life to finally turn around into a positive. I definitely believe in Karma, and I've tried my hardest to live the best life I can, but nothing ever positive comes back in my direction. Always negative.
What a depressing journal entry.