i cant stand it anylonger!
wow....ok...tell me if this makes sense....
this week is CAPT testing....upperclassmen (jr's and sr's) dont have to be in school until 11ish or later....tomorrow just so happens that I dont have to be at school until 12:15pm....bc first of i have 1st lunch tomorrow...so i dont have to eat there...so the thing is the bus comes at 10:30am to pick me up and i get to school at 10:45am....therefore if i do the same thing tomorrow...take the bus i will have almost 2 hours to sit in the auditorium...doing...absolutely...NOTHING! so, vanessa offered to give me a ride and that way we could go out to eat or something before school....so....
i was going to go to the mall w/vanessa after school today...but my stepdad said no...and that im kind of grounded....so i was like ok....and i bit my lip and didnt say anything....so i told my mom about not having to b at school till 12:15pm and she said...well we have to talk to your stepdad...so i was like...FINE!....so.....
my stepdad comes home...i go to say hi to him and give him a kiss...and he ignores me...then he is like mean the rest of the time..and when i ask about getting picked up in the morning he said....absolutely not...but the thing is i was talking to him and when he answered back he only looked at my mom! what a jerk! ok..i understand he is in a bad mood...but he treats me like i dont exist and that it makes no difference if i am at home safe or in a ditch...then when i went downstairs i heard arguing b/t him and my mom...idk about what but im guessing about me.....i feel like im such trouble and that if i wasnt here it would be better for my family bc im such a burden...
and when i was writing this in the begining i was freakin mad and now im just like about to burst into tears....ok just started to cry now....but im gonna go...
this week is CAPT testing....upperclassmen (jr's and sr's) dont have to be in school until 11ish or later....tomorrow just so happens that I dont have to be at school until 12:15pm....bc first of i have 1st lunch tomorrow...so i dont have to eat there...so the thing is the bus comes at 10:30am to pick me up and i get to school at 10:45am....therefore if i do the same thing tomorrow...take the bus i will have almost 2 hours to sit in the auditorium...doing...absolutely...NOTHING! so, vanessa offered to give me a ride and that way we could go out to eat or something before school....so....
i was going to go to the mall w/vanessa after school today...but my stepdad said no...and that im kind of grounded....so i was like ok....and i bit my lip and didnt say anything....so i told my mom about not having to b at school till 12:15pm and she said...well we have to talk to your stepdad...so i was like...FINE!....so.....
my stepdad comes home...i go to say hi to him and give him a kiss...and he ignores me...then he is like mean the rest of the time..and when i ask about getting picked up in the morning he said....absolutely not...but the thing is i was talking to him and when he answered back he only looked at my mom! what a jerk! ok..i understand he is in a bad mood...but he treats me like i dont exist and that it makes no difference if i am at home safe or in a ditch...then when i went downstairs i heard arguing b/t him and my mom...idk about what but im guessing about me.....i feel like im such trouble and that if i wasnt here it would be better for my family bc im such a burden...
and when i was writing this in the begining i was freakin mad and now im just like about to burst into tears....ok just started to cry now....but im gonna go...