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[cdhaskett]

It's four forty in the morning and i am alone
haven't been able to sleep much since you've gone
i try and take myself out of this miserable place
where i'm so intoxicated by the way you used to taste
after all i did nothing wrong
and in a world of pain
i was always singing your song.

so i breathe out and i breathe in
believing that i can get through this
slowly forgetting all that you meant
because if i don't just leave you now
i'll be forever in your web
with no way to get out.

you have broken me and i've got the bruises to prove
that you're not the person you said you were
somedays i find that i can barely move
on account of the pain, my old life now a blur
you are not the person i thought
and now i wonder if you ever really were
anything but a liar who could not stop
and broke a lot of good people along the way.

so i breathe out and i breathe in
believing that i can get through this
slowly forgetting all that you meant
because if i don't just leave you now
i'll be forever in your web
with no way to get out.

i hope that one day when you're looking back
you'll see all the things i went through for you
and you'll know that for all the respect you lacked
and for all the times you hurt me, i was still willing to be there
when you wanted to come home to someone who cared
i was always on your side and i thought you were on mine
but that's the funny thing with time
it always shows the truth that hope hides.