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ok guys, i have a problem. after my last entry, jess sent me a text message asking me to go over her house on more time. since i was already gunna leave to play halo 2 with the guys, i figured, sure why not (i will explain why). i got there and stayed for a few minutes because she told me she still wanted me and we almost had sex, and if i didn't want to meet up with my friends we would have. so was so horney she wanted me to go home and get the whip and handcuffs. anyway, i left chris' around 12:30am and went back to jess'. she was asleep and it took me 10 minutes of banging on her door and calling her house for her to wake up and let me in. not only was she too tired for what she told me she was gunna do, but she was no longer sure about us. i think kyle had called her plus she was hangin out with a friend of hers and she was thinkin about us and how is probably wont work. but i slept over neway and we did have sex once. the next day she had to leave semi early to go to a play with her cousin and i was depressed cuz i found out i wasn't gunna be able to see her again for at least a month. o yeah, one other thing. she wasn't wereing my necklace that i gave her, my symbol for our love, and instead was wearing a necklace kyle gave her. anyway here's the dilemma. i love her, with all my heart and soul, more than anything in all of creation. i would even give up D&D for her and i did once. i really want this to be able to work, which is why i keep going back to her and why i went back to her house that night. on the other hand, my family and friends pretty much hate her, and her father wants her to date kyle. he sez they'll make a great couple. also i really cant take the fact that i'll only see the love of my life about 12 times a year. right now my desire to stay with her is matched by my desire to break up with her... and i need to kno wut to do. i don't just want the usual "break up with her cuz she's a slut and she lies to you: that i usually get from everyone. i really do love her. and i want to know wut you guys would do in the same situation, not taking into acount what has happened to us in the past, just that i love her, we're very far apart, and both our respective friends and family don't want us together. if you were in the same situation, what would you do? please tell me, i need some help to carry on. i love you guys, and i'd help you out as best i could with advice. so gimme what ya got. thanks in advance