Beginning. Journey. Left? Right? Uhm.
I assume I am in a quite odd mood the last days. Not generally but when it comes to writing. Again. I have the feeling that I must make a decision and follow it instead of... well, what? Go with the flow?
Situation how it is:
There is finished book sitting on my notebook which I wrote years ago. I still love the idea, the plot, the characters, BUT it is not worth to post, publish, do anything serious with it as it is now. Then there is that new idea with that King Arthur legend based story, which I still hesitate to push because it won't be my native language to write in and it will be long and this will take a lot of time. And last but not least there is this roleplay thing. I will not give this up as I love the interaction with other writers a lot. And "writers" they are, not just "players". The level is really high there.
So, three points listed that are very different but in the end all the same.
Fact is:
I have a 100% job I have to focus on, I have a dog I have to take care of, some friends and little bit of a real social life. As much as I would love to be, I am no dreamer so I assume the chance to publish anything at all in my life is somewhere at 0,01%. Is it worth the effforts and time to work on that book then? Not sure. Is it all about publishing it in the end? Or would it be enough to find a proper place to post it online and get some comments?
The worst thing for me is wasting time. And at the moment I think I waste the time because I do not want to waste it so badly. Hmpf.
I must let go something - the book, the time, the thinking about it, the wasting point, something. But I do not know what exactly yet and good gracious, this is really annyoing. So I thought that writing it down would probably help.
C.D. Ward.
P.S.:
I wondered why this bothered me so much NOW after all this time. Maybe because I read some really bad authors lately who earn good money with their stuff...?
Situation how it is:
There is finished book sitting on my notebook which I wrote years ago. I still love the idea, the plot, the characters, BUT it is not worth to post, publish, do anything serious with it as it is now. Then there is that new idea with that King Arthur legend based story, which I still hesitate to push because it won't be my native language to write in and it will be long and this will take a lot of time. And last but not least there is this roleplay thing. I will not give this up as I love the interaction with other writers a lot. And "writers" they are, not just "players". The level is really high there.
So, three points listed that are very different but in the end all the same.
Fact is:
I have a 100% job I have to focus on, I have a dog I have to take care of, some friends and little bit of a real social life. As much as I would love to be, I am no dreamer so I assume the chance to publish anything at all in my life is somewhere at 0,01%. Is it worth the effforts and time to work on that book then? Not sure. Is it all about publishing it in the end? Or would it be enough to find a proper place to post it online and get some comments?
The worst thing for me is wasting time. And at the moment I think I waste the time because I do not want to waste it so badly. Hmpf.
I must let go something - the book, the time, the thinking about it, the wasting point, something. But I do not know what exactly yet and good gracious, this is really annyoing. So I thought that writing it down would probably help.
C.D. Ward.
P.S.:
I wondered why this bothered me so much NOW after all this time. Maybe because I read some really bad authors lately who earn good money with their stuff...?