Sometimes Goodbyes are Forever
After a while, you learn the difference between holdin a hand and falling in love.
You begin to learn that kisses dont always mean something, promises can be broken just as quickly as they were made, and sometimes good-byes really are forever
This holds so much for me right now. Its like, everything you ever hoped for when you were growing up has in a way dissapeared, but not in a bad way. Almost like when you look back, you forgot how bad you wanted to be the prettiest most popular in school. You forget how you wanted to date the star quarter back. You forget all of the shit they raised you to think was cool. You just look at your friends, wal*mart trips, birthdays, bluemen, chippendales, blue men chippendales and you say, i dont need anything more than what i have right now. You realize some people should have been said goodbye to long ago. And not the goodbye that was said, but the real goodbye. Some people you arent suppose to hold on to forever. And as i begin to grow up in myself, i am ready to try things on my own, 1/2 scared i will just come back, like i swear i dont want to, 1/2 scared that i wont fit in, 1/2 scared that i just wont be wanted.
Getting ready for college is such a slur of feelings. You want to make this last year a great one, but you want to start on your own so bad you want it over. The scared rejection feelings running high. Meeting new people from out of state, wondering if you will find people like them were you are going. And leaving behind your friends. The ones you have only known a few years, but feel like you have known them forever. Why is that, in 20 years, we will not even remember half of these people. The people that today have such an impact on your life, just vanish into the surrounds, like they werent even there. This small small time in your life, the most important years in your life, and in the middle of them, you lose the most important people to you.
Life is complicated but interesting, it is such a rush to met new people, who actually find you interesting and want to be with you. But, at the same time, realizing people will use you, whereas, people back at home, dont do that to you. Its a hard lesson, but to grow up, they most all be learned.
To those i love and those to come.
Life is funny.
You begin to learn that kisses dont always mean something, promises can be broken just as quickly as they were made, and sometimes good-byes really are forever
This holds so much for me right now. Its like, everything you ever hoped for when you were growing up has in a way dissapeared, but not in a bad way. Almost like when you look back, you forgot how bad you wanted to be the prettiest most popular in school. You forget how you wanted to date the star quarter back. You forget all of the shit they raised you to think was cool. You just look at your friends, wal*mart trips, birthdays, bluemen, chippendales, blue men chippendales and you say, i dont need anything more than what i have right now. You realize some people should have been said goodbye to long ago. And not the goodbye that was said, but the real goodbye. Some people you arent suppose to hold on to forever. And as i begin to grow up in myself, i am ready to try things on my own, 1/2 scared i will just come back, like i swear i dont want to, 1/2 scared that i wont fit in, 1/2 scared that i just wont be wanted.
Getting ready for college is such a slur of feelings. You want to make this last year a great one, but you want to start on your own so bad you want it over. The scared rejection feelings running high. Meeting new people from out of state, wondering if you will find people like them were you are going. And leaving behind your friends. The ones you have only known a few years, but feel like you have known them forever. Why is that, in 20 years, we will not even remember half of these people. The people that today have such an impact on your life, just vanish into the surrounds, like they werent even there. This small small time in your life, the most important years in your life, and in the middle of them, you lose the most important people to you.
Life is complicated but interesting, it is such a rush to met new people, who actually find you interesting and want to be with you. But, at the same time, realizing people will use you, whereas, people back at home, dont do that to you. Its a hard lesson, but to grow up, they most all be learned.
To those i love and those to come.
Life is funny.