An Ended Era
I don't really know how long an era is, but for now it represents two years. Two years of laughter, fun, getting to know someone from another culture, heartache and pain. It represents two years of loving someone more than I ever loved before. It represents all of the hate I have for certain things he did to me.
Nufo is moving to Maryland tomorrow to live with his ex and work there.
It's really sad and I don't really know exeactly how I feel about it.
Today I have to say good bye.
It hurts.
But things will be better this way eventually.
I just wish I wasn't left in this city with all of the places he took me and all of the streets we drove on.
I would like to leave.
I'm just so uuncomfortable with these memories floating in my head.
Many good and bad memories.
Love and Heart ache.
Desire and pain.
Those things always went hand in hand when I was with him.
It was never just one or the other.
I would like to be happy that he's leaving.
Just say-"well, he put me through a lot of shit."
But that's not all that it was.
I loved him.
and now he's leaving.
Maybe now I'll be able to move on and give myself closure.
I hope I find that.
Nufo is moving to Maryland tomorrow to live with his ex and work there.
It's really sad and I don't really know exeactly how I feel about it.
Today I have to say good bye.
It hurts.
But things will be better this way eventually.
I just wish I wasn't left in this city with all of the places he took me and all of the streets we drove on.
I would like to leave.
I'm just so uuncomfortable with these memories floating in my head.
Many good and bad memories.
Love and Heart ache.
Desire and pain.
Those things always went hand in hand when I was with him.
It was never just one or the other.
I would like to be happy that he's leaving.
Just say-"well, he put me through a lot of shit."
But that's not all that it was.
I loved him.
and now he's leaving.
Maybe now I'll be able to move on and give myself closure.
I hope I find that.