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This is for all the people I have ignored and distanced myself in the past month or so. I was not myself the past month and have become an entirely different person a person i dont want to be. I have become selfish and focused on myself only.. not thinking of anybody else who is close to me...I have brushed them aside and pretty much told them from my actions that i didnt give two shits what they thought....but the thing was that they were trying to tell me to get my shit together and focus on what is important and focus on the opportunity that i had, an opportunity to get a world class education, and to meet two people that i will never forget, and one person that i will never ever forget as long as i live. The thing is that i waited untill it was almost too late and hurt alot of people because of that. I have come to realize that im pushing those two people away from me, and all i can say is that i am sorry to those that i have hurt through this enrtire ordeal. I have said some hurtful things and i want them to know im sorry and i dont ever want to be that person again. I want to stay friends with both of them and be better friends as we go through college together. They say that you meet people in college you are going to be friends with through your entire life, and I want it to be like that with my two friends that are close to me. I want to get back those friends that i have lost and get back the person that I was. In all the times that i have been at Michelle's I forgot my two best friends across campus, both whom have been there for me through hell and high water and i want to get back my friendship with both of them. I just want to turn my life around and get my priorities in line and realize what I have and it is great what kind of friends i have that look out for me and listen to me when i need them, but next time..if there is ever a next time i will listen and change myself so i dont loose what I value dearly, my friendship with a great group of people and the relationship I have with a great woman and I dont want to loose either one of them they are both very important to me.