thinking of doing something crazy
Let me start by saying i hate hurting peoples feelings and i also hate when i know i made someone depressed if that is possible.
OK after a long ride with jason and about 100 stops along the way (i would say im joking but im really not there were loke 100) I was informed that a certin person was very unhappy again and i was making her that way. I do believ she went from smileing all the time to not at all.
Side bar: she did it to herslef, read last entry. OK now on that night she also happened to tell the "other guy" she didnt want a relationship at all. He hates her, very unexpected, and i know she really doesnt want a relationship and i dont want that eather. I really dont and now i know that. The reason she didnt want me to go was because the "other guy" was there and she didnt want me there. If she would have told me that we wouldnt be in this mess, and we wouldnt, I would have been 100X less mad if she was straight forward and said that.
Back to the crazy part. I miss her. I was bored at work today and all i was doing was thinking about her. Asking myself if this is HS and childish. Is it? Maybe it is, she did a very shitty thing and i dont know how forgiving i can be. I wam very forgiving and i consider myself and "Mr. Nice Guy". What to do, what to do.
OK after a long ride with jason and about 100 stops along the way (i would say im joking but im really not there were loke 100) I was informed that a certin person was very unhappy again and i was making her that way. I do believ she went from smileing all the time to not at all.
Side bar: she did it to herslef, read last entry. OK now on that night she also happened to tell the "other guy" she didnt want a relationship at all. He hates her, very unexpected, and i know she really doesnt want a relationship and i dont want that eather. I really dont and now i know that. The reason she didnt want me to go was because the "other guy" was there and she didnt want me there. If she would have told me that we wouldnt be in this mess, and we wouldnt, I would have been 100X less mad if she was straight forward and said that.
Back to the crazy part. I miss her. I was bored at work today and all i was doing was thinking about her. Asking myself if this is HS and childish. Is it? Maybe it is, she did a very shitty thing and i dont know how forgiving i can be. I wam very forgiving and i consider myself and "Mr. Nice Guy". What to do, what to do.