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i guess we will start with the happy stuff first....i got a job and i start in the beginning of march so im kind of excited cuz i really hate being jobless. It really sux not having money, gas, a job, not being able to do things that contains paying. so yea off to the the bad stuff. I was suppose to move in with stephonie and her husband if she got the house in ceres actually its walking distance from your house kim. but they didn't get the house. Which sucked hardcore. my parents have been fighting alot more again: its like we fight constantly then we sit down and talk then we dont fight for a month then we start hella fighting. Gay!! i know. I hate living here anymore. i cant do it anymore. Im at the point where i'd rather be homeles then live in this house anymore. Tasha asks me constantly if im okay cuz i dont talk here, i can't sleep, never really hungry, im seriously getting worse and worse in depression. I seriously can compare this place to hell. im always stuck babysitting or watching the kids ALL the time like im their fucking mom and im not. Justin and jordan are going to grow up like anthony i can already feel it. They get EVERYTHING they want. If they cry for something jen and dad will give it to them just to make them shut up. Joey and i on the other hand give him time outs for pouting and screaming. Joey's kid does everything he says cuz she knows exactly what time out it and hates it. She's difinitely spoiled but to an extenct. My parents yell at me about how i dont ever spend family time with them. but when i am home my dads working on his dumb kitchen barbecue in the back yard and my moms always out running errands so guess what guys i get stuck watching the kids. i dont know how many times i have to say it: IM NOT THEIR FUCKING MOM!!! They yell at me for the smallest stuff like i forgot to put one stupid cup in the dishwasher after i did the kitchen and we got into a blown out yelling fest. i think the only time i've been happy for the last few months, well two things: 1. Tasha and i hung out with TJ and watch Nightmare on Elm ST., it was funny i hecka fell asleep during the movie hahah good times. 2. last night i hung out with liz, TJ, tasha and watched this animated show which was hella funny. I like Grr....hahaha that was so funny. Tj knew like every line on there. i mean you could tell he's never seen the movie. hahaha. it fun, short, but still fun. But i was still stressing out over there bout everything so i guess i wasn't the best company. Sorry guys!!!!!! WElp ill talk to you late.