Feeling Of Futility
So I need to do all these spiritual practices to open myself up to the jyotir vidya. Attempted intellectualization is futile, unless one opens up to the universe, well then, forget it.
Honestly, I have spent a lot of time worrying about, as well as trying to help some certain person in my life and whenever I look into the universe, the same answer descends from the akashic records....
I will be 47 soon. I am learning some astrology skills, but it takes more than that. I don't want to waste my efforts. OK so all I have to do is start small. The key is to slowly change one's habits by replacing them with good ones according to ayurveda. To change anything at all in this stifling routine one must poke gently and start small, plant the seed, and pay a little attention to it every day and then it will grow.
The western world is filled with meaningless jobs. There are still places on the planet where it is one's job to do serious interplanetary rituals all day long. My job is a meditation, my job is a prison sentence. Work 20 years for coverage to pay premium for decay, decline, and death.
Now I need to get back in the truck, pick up Lula, buy dog food, and go back to work and discuss work problems I don't want to talk about. Blek.
Honestly, I have spent a lot of time worrying about, as well as trying to help some certain person in my life and whenever I look into the universe, the same answer descends from the akashic records....
I will be 47 soon. I am learning some astrology skills, but it takes more than that. I don't want to waste my efforts. OK so all I have to do is start small. The key is to slowly change one's habits by replacing them with good ones according to ayurveda. To change anything at all in this stifling routine one must poke gently and start small, plant the seed, and pay a little attention to it every day and then it will grow.
The western world is filled with meaningless jobs. There are still places on the planet where it is one's job to do serious interplanetary rituals all day long. My job is a meditation, my job is a prison sentence. Work 20 years for coverage to pay premium for decay, decline, and death.
Now I need to get back in the truck, pick up Lula, buy dog food, and go back to work and discuss work problems I don't want to talk about. Blek.