dilemma!

[ccalynn2005]

I ended up going to La Crosse with Aaron and had an awesome time! We went to all of “his” places today since yesterday we went to mine, lol. So we went to best buy for him to get some CDs and he needed to drop something off down town so we did that. Did anyone know there was like this old time theater down there? That would be the perfect date place…IM SERIOUS! I want to go there so bad now. Anyways Aaron took me out to Olive Garden. It was a really nice dinner! The Aaron got this call on his cell just as he was paying. It was Josh. He had gotten his parents boat and was having a party on it and wanted him and me to come. Aaron and I then had to drive back to get out swim suits and then drive all the way back to La Crosse. It was an awesome ride though because Aaron and I caught up on a lot of shit that we hadn’t had time to talk about since summer. And of course he asked me about Marcel and how that was turning out. I told him that we are not going out. I figured that is the best I could say. Then once we got to the Mississippi we immediately seen josh’s because it was the one with like 30 people on it and music really loud. lol I went tubing. Josh would begin really slow and nice then he would be a hardass and would whip the boat making me fly in the air then hit the ground hard I wiped out once though and it hurt really bad. Then I water skied with Brooke…it was a lot of fun! Then I figured I would be really brave and try wake boarding, HOLY SHIT that was hard! After the third time I wiped out I gave up! Then I got all dried up. As I was drying off I was looking around at all the guys in there swimming trunks and I’m like holy shit…what they have done since fucking high school. A LOT of them were looking good! And one guy caught my eye…Aaron! I don’t know if it was that I have been spending more time with or how well we know and like each other. But damn I think Aaron had gotten really hot! Anyways, it started to get dark and we all sat around and bull shitted. And there was the occasional throw someone in the water but it was cool because I hadn’t had a nice and long conversation with my friends in a long time! They were telling me how much they missed me and having me around, and I have to admit my friends can be dumb asses at times and not make the right decisions but they are pretty cool people and I respect most of them a lot more now. I think I have kind of seen a change since high school but in the back of my head I see the immature people that made me so mad also! We also talked about what we had been doing and what we think the future would lead us and just a bunch of random shit! Well then I was getting tired and asked Aaron to take me home because he was the person I came with. During the ride home I fell asleep on Aarons lap and he covered me up with his jacket. When I got to the house Aaron woke me up and walked me to the door. He gave me a kiss goodnight and told me I had no clue how much he was going to miss me! And it’s funny because he is just going to school in Tennessee and I’m sure we will be seeing a lot of each other. He will be the closest one I know when I go off to college. But I defiantly think Aaron and I have feelings for one another and I think we always have. We never really dated but we always enjoyed each others company and did stuff that people that date do…but we never actually dated one another. We have been best friends for 4 years and like junior year we kind of went to just being friends because we were both dating 2 different people. But senior year I don’t think I would have made it with out him by my side helping me with everything I was going through! I don’t know if it will get to dating level right now but I’m sure we will get closer and closer as the time goes on.
And this brings me to a dilemma because I kind of like Marcel, but we haven’t met in person yet. And we haven’t known each other but 2 weeks, so I don’t know if I like him like him or just have a “crush.” And lately I don’t know what has been happening but there is things that I’m finding out and turning out not how I expected! And I don’t know what to do or think right now. I’m going to think about this some more and I will get back to you. But for right now it’s off to bed for me... I guess someone isn’t getting online, and it sucks because I wanted to have company tonight! Night ya’ll!