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there are so many emotions that i feel right now. mostly hate. and hurt. i sometimes just get to that point where i don't want to say anything i hurt so bad. i just want to die. everything that could possibly go wrong has gone wrong. its been that way for the past few weeks. i want to cry so bad. i wish i could let myself. but i hate to cry. i hate it. i don't want to cry. i just hurt so bad and i wish anyone could understand. but no one does and i don't know why i feel this way and i hate it. i hate my life and i just want to be with him*. he is the only thing that makes me happy. i hate my life i really hate it. i love him