mixed emotions
finally got a call sayin for me to get stuff ready for work and that i'll most likely be starting this week so thats good....lately everything has been seeming wierd to me and ppl acting different and its makin me depressed and i dont quite no why. like for a while everthing was great and couldnt be better, now lately i just feel really unhappy and depressed and im just trying to hide it behind a fake smile or i say jokes and act like an idiot so ppl think im fine when really...im not at all. and the hard part is that i dont think theres anything i can do about it except just sit and watch and wish for the best and hope everything turns out alrite its just hard for me since ive been so unhappy with my life lately....oh well. i even caught myself thinkin bout sumthin i havnt thought about in a while and very few of u no what that is lol. i dont really no whats goin on right now with me i think i just need a break from things or need to get outa school and get on with my life i dont no. everythings in my mind is just wierd right now i guess and its letting stuff get to me, i dont no...well thats all im gonna say for now so i guess bye and i'll write more later.