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In my efforts to continue being the greatest student ever I skipped two out of three classes this morning (bringing my semester's total to 6). I had to go to psychology since we had a test which I think I did halfway well on. That's actually pretty amazing since I didn't do most of the readings. And then I called off of work again. I've decided that I'm going to talk to my doctor over spring break about going on anxiety meds or anti-depressants cuz this is starting to get ridiculous. Then maybe I'll be able to quit smoking, cuz I've realized that half the time I can't focus at all anymore unless I smoke. And anyways, given the strong history of alcoholism/drug addiction/and mental illness on both sides of my family I've decided I need to do something. I'm seriously afraid of going insane and the fact that half of my classes keep mentioning that most people have their first psychotic break around 20 isn't helping matters much. So I prolly will just stay in Hamilton over break after all since I don't know if I'm going to be in any condition to drive or not. In other news, I need to find somewhere to live next year in case Joe goes into the army and we can't get an apartment. This really sucks cuz housing selection is next wednesday and if I can't find roommates I can't stay on campus. I had just been planning on putting in with Briana and Katelyn again but apparently I've been replaced (which I just found out like an hour ago when I heard them talking about it). WTF? They could have at least given me a heads up cuz I doubt I can find anyone this late. If they'd of even told me like a week ago I could have stayed with Angela. So I don't know what I'm going to do, cuz I sure as hell don't want to have to live at home next year and commute. I'm almost positive I'd wind up dropping out and it's too late to transfer so I dunno.