Looking back......
Uh oh, it looks like I'm about to embark on a James type tangent of monumental thought and emotions. Eeeek. Turn back now, if you know what's good for you.
Well today has been a gorgeous day, I drank some beers and played frisbee, and all my friends [except Hogan, you fuckrod :-) ] are coming into town, so it looks like things are picking up for the summer. But lost in all this goodness comes this feeling of confusion. Most of my friends are graduating, and Im happy for them, but what the fuck am I gonna do after I graduate? I mean this scares the living shit outta me. Like the people that are graduating KNOW what their doing, and its something theyve planned, but I have absolutely nothing planned. I feel like Im just walking into a dark tunnel without a flashlight. I mean all I really want in life is a loving wife, and a job where I dont have to struggle. Is that too much to ask? No, but I don't have the slightest clue as how to get there from here. It sometimes seems that I am supposed to feel the way I do, and that it will all work out in one way or another, but it gets hard to understand that sometimes. I dunno, maybe I'm just freaking out about absolutely nothing, but its been on my mind this fine summer afternoon.
Peace.
Well today has been a gorgeous day, I drank some beers and played frisbee, and all my friends [except Hogan, you fuckrod :-) ] are coming into town, so it looks like things are picking up for the summer. But lost in all this goodness comes this feeling of confusion. Most of my friends are graduating, and Im happy for them, but what the fuck am I gonna do after I graduate? I mean this scares the living shit outta me. Like the people that are graduating KNOW what their doing, and its something theyve planned, but I have absolutely nothing planned. I feel like Im just walking into a dark tunnel without a flashlight. I mean all I really want in life is a loving wife, and a job where I dont have to struggle. Is that too much to ask? No, but I don't have the slightest clue as how to get there from here. It sometimes seems that I am supposed to feel the way I do, and that it will all work out in one way or another, but it gets hard to understand that sometimes. I dunno, maybe I'm just freaking out about absolutely nothing, but its been on my mind this fine summer afternoon.
Peace.