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i was so wrong. and i'm so glad i was so wrong because i don't want to leave south, or south stage, with anything but love. and i'm happy because i know what i'd like to get better at and i'll have a chance to make a fresh start at simmons and try to do things differently, but i also know that despite little snags, i'm ridiculously pleased with where i am right now. there are things i wish i'd done, friends i wish i hadn't lost touch with, but i need to learn to remember that everyone makes mistakes and i need to not dwell in the past.
i'm so proud of these kids. i can't wait to see where they're going. and where i'm going.
i'm not sad. i mean, i'm sad to leave these people that i love and this program and this environment that feels so safe to me, but even though i'm sad and a little scared, i'm ready. i know i'm ready. i'm ready to take everything i've learned and bring it to simmons and start working to leave their tiny little theater club a little better off than i found it. they do two shows a year right now. maybe by the time i graduate, they'll be doing three. and i'm excited to go out and be a part of that growth because i know i have something to bring them. a lot of things. everything i know from south stage. so yeah i'm sad to go, but do you know i haven't cried once at any of these various "this is the end" things? not after heidi, not on the last day of school, not at graduation, never. and i used to cry at the end of every show because i wasn't ready to leave it because i wasn't sure i would like what ever came next as much. but that's not me anymore. i know what's next and i'm ready for it and i'm comfortable, even proud, of where we've left south stage and i know it's in good hands with everyone else. so even though it's wierd to think that there's nothing more i can do for it, for south stage, it'll be ok. it'll keep getting better. and i'll be ok to.
basically, the whole point is: i'm sad to go. but i'm ready for what's next.
i'm so proud of these kids. i can't wait to see where they're going. and where i'm going.
i'm not sad. i mean, i'm sad to leave these people that i love and this program and this environment that feels so safe to me, but even though i'm sad and a little scared, i'm ready. i know i'm ready. i'm ready to take everything i've learned and bring it to simmons and start working to leave their tiny little theater club a little better off than i found it. they do two shows a year right now. maybe by the time i graduate, they'll be doing three. and i'm excited to go out and be a part of that growth because i know i have something to bring them. a lot of things. everything i know from south stage. so yeah i'm sad to go, but do you know i haven't cried once at any of these various "this is the end" things? not after heidi, not on the last day of school, not at graduation, never. and i used to cry at the end of every show because i wasn't ready to leave it because i wasn't sure i would like what ever came next as much. but that's not me anymore. i know what's next and i'm ready for it and i'm comfortable, even proud, of where we've left south stage and i know it's in good hands with everyone else. so even though it's wierd to think that there's nothing more i can do for it, for south stage, it'll be ok. it'll keep getting better. and i'll be ok to.
basically, the whole point is: i'm sad to go. but i'm ready for what's next.