A Little Insight
On Thursday I got (and replied to) an email from an attorney at a personal injury firm that I'd applied to Wednesday and as I was replying and thinking about what it'll be like to start a brand-new job, no matter where, I got some insight into my sudden reluctance about doing NaNoWriMo when I'd been looking forward to it before. I was wrong when I said it had nothing to do with the job situation - actually, I think it has everything to do with it. Looking for a job kind of eats my brain, even though I'm not actively looking 8 hours a day. It's still in the forefront of my mind all the time. Then when I get a job, getting acclimated and learning the new position and the new work culture will also eat my brain. My desire to do nothing but relaxing things when I'm job hunting directly feeds that reluctance to do NNWM this year. (I like writing but it's not relaxing.) Ironically, that realization may free up some words. I'm off tomorrow to spend a few hours writing at a friend's house; I hope I can put aside thoughts of resumes and interviews while I'm there. (I have an interview at that firm first thing Monday morning. Hate interviews! I never know what to say when they ask my strengths and weaknesses. Or what's the biggest accomplishment from your last job? Um, not quitting without notice after telling them exactly what I thought of them? Somehow, I don't think that will fly.)