reconnecting
why is it that i am suddenly ready to reconnect? i have been such a hermit this past semester...just holding on--holding my breath--and trying to get through this really rough (that is, lousy!) field placement that i am in. have been so down so much of these past few months...but when i have really needed friends the most have i reached out the least. i do have some new friends from school who i've leaned on a bit...but they really only know a tiny piece of me. and i am starting to feel that. and i really miss my queer family(ies).
so this is a big apology and a pledge to do all this differently starting NOW.
what i want for the winter: tons of cozy days and nights watching movies and making food and taking winter walks and having deep long talks...with all of YOU!!!!!!
so feel free to cut and paste this and post it on my forehead at any point that i seem to forget.
yes?
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and one more thing. i met a beautiful amazing little child named evelyn jane yesterday. she is the baby of the boy who was my very first significant romantic thing. meeting her is bringing up all sorts of emotions for me. mostly it is just blowing my mind how life keeps on going and going and changing...and watching him with her and feeling close to them--he and i have been through so much over so many years now--it makes me feel hopeful. maybe i will write some more about that...but i just wanted to share it right away.
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so this is a big apology and a pledge to do all this differently starting NOW.
what i want for the winter: tons of cozy days and nights watching movies and making food and taking winter walks and having deep long talks...with all of YOU!!!!!!
so feel free to cut and paste this and post it on my forehead at any point that i seem to forget.
yes?
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and one more thing. i met a beautiful amazing little child named evelyn jane yesterday. she is the baby of the boy who was my very first significant romantic thing. meeting her is bringing up all sorts of emotions for me. mostly it is just blowing my mind how life keeps on going and going and changing...and watching him with her and feeling close to them--he and i have been through so much over so many years now--it makes me feel hopeful. maybe i will write some more about that...but i just wanted to share it right away.
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