Decision to write...
I am writing for myself...I have no friends on here, but one and that is because I really enjoy her writing... that said, I am NO WRITER....and if you come across this, which I don't think anyone should...I believe that I put private, but just in case...please keep this in mind...I am writing because I want to keep a log of my thoughts and events because it might be cool to come back and read them a year from now....soooo....this is for myself...
Ok...today...what did I do??? I took my boys to a playground in the hopes that Austin would have fun and find a friend to play with....not only did he find a friend, but he also found a friend that goes to that park 3 times a week!! ...he had a great time!! I am still obsessing about my christmas decorations...I love them, but I want more...it's like a drug...I can't get enough of them...I want to make xmas the best for my children...I never had a place to decorate before...i'm like a child discovering something new...it's great!! and I also got to cook my own turkey that came out great!! i'm in a crazy mood today...my husband keeps asking me if I am the h word...lol...I guess I am...it doesn't happen often (especially since I have been fixed) but when it does...lol...i often wish that my husband would spank me or something like that...I would like to be tied up and whipped, but he is more the submissive...two submissive types...lol...as perverted as this may sound too...I wouldn't mind finding him a sexy lady who he could call "master" and I could watch him get punished...now that would be fun...ok....lol...my perverted fantasies might get me into trouble...I was listening to death in june today and if Tyson could be modeled after a band that would be them...he just "fits" the music so well...he is a German lover and their history is everything to himm...my sexy husband is far more itelligent then is good for him...he is like a time bomb ready to explode...I think it is hard to be so smart with so few smart people to talk to...I am smart, I believe, but I have little knowledge of history....he loves it...the only thing is that he knows almost all of it...and he thirsts for more...what to do with a man like that? I don't know...sigh...he needs someone to talk to on his level...but then again he needs me to bring him back down..he is definately smart, but he is not God...and he needs to be reminded of that...lol :-)
Ok...today...what did I do??? I took my boys to a playground in the hopes that Austin would have fun and find a friend to play with....not only did he find a friend, but he also found a friend that goes to that park 3 times a week!! ...he had a great time!! I am still obsessing about my christmas decorations...I love them, but I want more...it's like a drug...I can't get enough of them...I want to make xmas the best for my children...I never had a place to decorate before...i'm like a child discovering something new...it's great!! and I also got to cook my own turkey that came out great!! i'm in a crazy mood today...my husband keeps asking me if I am the h word...lol...I guess I am...it doesn't happen often (especially since I have been fixed) but when it does...lol...i often wish that my husband would spank me or something like that...I would like to be tied up and whipped, but he is more the submissive...two submissive types...lol...as perverted as this may sound too...I wouldn't mind finding him a sexy lady who he could call "master" and I could watch him get punished...now that would be fun...ok....lol...my perverted fantasies might get me into trouble...I was listening to death in june today and if Tyson could be modeled after a band that would be them...he just "fits" the music so well...he is a German lover and their history is everything to himm...my sexy husband is far more itelligent then is good for him...he is like a time bomb ready to explode...I think it is hard to be so smart with so few smart people to talk to...I am smart, I believe, but I have little knowledge of history....he loves it...the only thing is that he knows almost all of it...and he thirsts for more...what to do with a man like that? I don't know...sigh...he needs someone to talk to on his level...but then again he needs me to bring him back down..he is definately smart, but he is not God...and he needs to be reminded of that...lol :-)